Hopeless - The sequel to Breathless. A Janoskians fanfic.

5. "So, what happens now?"

I'm sorry it's short! I've just been so busy today getting ready for the guys tour tomorrow! This also means I might not update tomorrow, but I'll probably write on the train so I'll make up for it on Monday! Thank you for reading so far, I love you! Molly x

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"Her?!" Tabby screamed and burst into floods of tears, I could see her shaking, I wasn't sure if it was in shock, anger or heartbreak, maybe all three. I could hear Shay running up the stairs to comfort her friend, I didn't know what to say, luckily Beau was here or I'd have been completely lost. "Look Tabby, it's not what you think." I tried to hide the fact I'd just said I wanted Isla back, but my face just gave everything away. Beau took Shay back downstairs, leaving Tabby and I alone. "Why don't you love me Danny?" she asked, snot started to run down her face and her red lips crumpled, I'd never seen her look unattractive until this moment. What could I say to her? That Isla was everything that she wasn't? Isla was funny, intelligent, she stole my heart and my breath every time I saw her. "I do Tabby, I do, just not in the same way. She was the first person I ever loved, you must understand how that feels?" I looked into her eyes and she stared back at me as if she was reminiscing a memory. "Yes." she whispered, "I do, but I love you Danny." I wish she'd stop fucking calling me that.

I gestured for her to lay with me on my bed, she looked reluctant at first but finally she gave in and slid herself under the covers. Her hand found mine, I stroked her thumb comfortingly and we stayed silent for a few moments. "His names Liam." she finally broke the awkwardness in the room, we were both staring up at the ceiling, enjoying the calm. "We were together for two years, then one day, he just left. Ran away from home." she began telling me about her ex boyfriend, it felt good just talking, we rarely had personal conversations, I guess we didn't know each other as well as we should. James was off meeting his girlfriend of three months family in New Zealand, Jai had just been to Ariana in L.A and Luke was Sierra's families new best friend, I didn't even know Tabby's family. "He came back a few months ago to see his family and we had lunch together, it was like nothing had ever changed. He told me he loved me still and that he'd stay for good. I stayed at his house that night and when I woke up, he had gone again." the sadness of her voice echoed around the room.

"I still care about him, but we all have to move on" she wiped the years from her eyes and turned her head to face me. I kept my eyes glued to the ceiling, I knew next I was going to have to explain myself to her. "What happened with Isla?" she genuinely sounded interested, as if she wanted to help and so I began the story. "i met her at a party, she was with Beau." I told her about seeing her again in the gym, and then again when Sierra had come over. I told her about the day we spent in Melbourne, then her history with Beau, i told her about the night Addie had arrived, I told her about going to Sydney and breaking up with her. "She nearly died, but I couldn't bring myself to watch the machines keeping her alive, I was a coward and then I met you." I finished telling Tabby about Isla and my eyes met hers. She looked sad, but she smiled at me and held my hand tighter. I didn't know why I'd told her all these things, she wasn't going to like it. "So, what happens now?".

Tabby and I decided to carry on our relationship and leave Liam and Isla in the past, she was right, we needed to move on. "she'll always be there like Liam is for you, but I'm with you now and I want this to work." I lied, I wanted Isla, but Tabby was eating out of the palm of my hand, my life wasn't going to get back to how it was five months ago and I had to deal with that. "I do love you." I whispered and kissed her cheek. We eventually hauled ourselves out of bed and made our way down stairs, hand in hand, to where Beau and Shay were sitting. "all sorted then?" Beau laughed and we sat down on the other sofa smiling. I didn't know what a real smile felt like anymore, I only ever seemed to fake them these days, this was how my life was now, an uncomfortable relationship, the girl I was in love with spending her time with one of my closest friends and fake happiness. Everything seemed hopeless.