Hopeless - The sequel to Breathless. A Janoskians fanfic.

4. "Can you just fuck off?"

Skip's POV -

Tabby was gorgeous, tall, slim, tanned what more like a guy want? We'd been dating for a couple of months now and I was finally happy again. Beau and Shay had become official around the same time and the four of us spent pretty much every moment together, today we were going to the movies, just a normal Saturday. We walked through the shopping centre, hand in hand with the girls and decided we'd go to the food court first. I kissed Tabby lightly in the forehead, laughing at a joke Beau had told us when suddenly "Isla!" Beau gasped, just hearing her name felt like I'd been stabbed in the heart. I looked in the direction Beau was looking in, and there she was as clear as day. She looked delicate, frail, her dress was baggy and you could see the weight loss in her face. She'd cut her beautiful long hair to her shoulders, but it looked incredible. She looked incredible. I let go of Tabby's hand, in this moment, I just wanted Isla in my arms. "Carry on walking cunts." she spat as we stared at her, she had a right to be angry, just as I was about to carry on walking Tabby ushered forwards.

Tabby and Isla exchanged a few vicious looks, I zoned out and heard Tabby call Isla an 'anorexic bitch' I couldn't take it, Tabby had no idea what Isla had been through, I needed to get them away from each other. "Tabby! Leave it!" I hissed trying to help the situation, Isla looked directly at me her beautiful blue eyes pierced through mine. They were similar to Tabby's eyes but Tabby's didn't glisten the way Isla's did. "Beau, Skip, I think it's best if you take Shay and Tabby away from here." Sierra snapped at us, I couldn't think of anything better to be honest, but before we had a change to leave Jai, Luke and Benji appeared from the food court. Luke took his usual position next to Sierra and to my surprise, Benji wrapped his arms around Isla and kissed her head. Rage filled within me, that should have been me. Jai said something to Beau, which I dismissed, I was just so angry, before I could help myself "it didn't take you long to get your claws into someone else did it Isla? Fucking one of my best friends wasn't enough, you had to fuck another one!" escaped my mouth, I regretted saying it instantly, I wasn't angry at her, I was angry at Benji.

Isla laughed, I usually loved her laugh, it was contagious, but this one was bitter and full of disgust. "Sorry I didn't realise you cared Daniel, where were you when I was dying?" she had definitely won this one. Benji stepped towards me "Do you know how much of a cunt you are?" his fist hit my face, I knew I deserved it. Tabby screeched and leant down to help me as they all walked away. I couldn't stand to be around Tabby right now, she over dramatised everything, I just wanted Isla back. I was completely in love with her and I missed her more than anything. I'd been a complete cunt to her, I knew that, but I couldn't do anything about it now. When I was away in Sydney Sierra called us to tell us what had happened and I tried everything to get back to her, but my contract stopped me, if I'd have walked out, that would have been the Janoskians future over, not just mine. When we did get back, I went straight from the airport to the hospital and stayed there for three days straight. I went home, gathered some things, washed and went back. For two weeks I stayed by her lifeless side but there was no response. I still visited every couple of days after but doctors had eventually told me she was likely to die, I couldn't watch the love of my life being kept alive by machines, suffering, so I left and didn't go back. Addie and Loren left for Perth, Addie had been my rock and I felt so alone without her, I just slept, cried and carried on boxing at the gym for days.

Beau had introduced me to Tabby at a party, she was Shay's best friend. At first I used her to get over Isla and over my guilt, after a while the sex became more frequent and we began spending every day together. I liked her, but I didn't love her, I only loved Isla, I always will. Tabby was the one to ask me to be her boyfriend, I didn't have the strength to say no, I hated being on my own and she filled a gap. Sierra called me when Isla woke up, I wanted to see her but something stopped me, I just couldn't bring myself to go to the hospital. She was there because of me, I was the last person she would want to see, I was happy in my life, and she'd be happier in hers without me. Luke and Sierra saw her pretty much every day after she went home, I asked about her, but the subject always changed, I knew they were hiding something. Jai was in L.A with Ariana and James had gone away with his new girlfriend Veronica to meet her family in New Zealand. James was due back in the next few days, I knew he'd go straight to Isla, she was close to all the boys apart from Beau and I. After our history, it wasn't surprising.

I finally picked myself off the floor, Tabby flapped around me, cursing about Isla and her 'pathetic life', I'd had enough. "Can you just fuck off" I snapped at her, Beau stared at me and Shay gasped. Tabby just stood frozen, and pulled her hands away from my arm. "But Danny!" I hated it when she called me that, she didn't like the fact everyone called me Skip and made her own horrific name for me. "look, I just want to go okay?" I said and she latched herself onto me again, burying her head into the crook of my neck. "I'll come with you, and Beau, and Shay." she put on this sweet, innocent voice that sickened me. I was started to resent her and I just wanted her to go, but I had no choice. I was with Tabby now and Isla was with Benji, the fucking snake. I knew since the day they met, on mine and Isla's first date he wanted her, he'd asked me if we were serious and we'd talked about her together, like brothers. He'd finally got what he'd wanted and she looked happy.

Beau's POV -

We got back to Skip's house, today had been pretty eventful. I was so shocked that Isla was there, she looked beautiful, absolutely amazing, even if she had just escaped death. As soon as I saw her, my heart sank into my stomach. There would never be an us, she belonged to Skip, even through everything that had happened I knew they still loved each other. I was with Shay, Skip was with Tabby and Isla was with Benji, that's just how things were now. Skip didn't like Tabby the way she liked him, she was irritating and her personality was pretty bland, she was just a distraction, as Shay had been for me. Eventually I got to terms with the fact Isla was going to die, Shay didn't know about her, neither did Tabby. I felt distant from the others, but without me, Skip had no-one, so I stuck by him. We had our differences in the past, but we were closer than ever now.

Skip excused himself to get changed, Tabby tried to follow him but he shrugged her off and she huffed, looking incredibly pissed off she came back to the front room where I was sitting with Shay. "Danny is pissing me off, yeah he got hit but he needs to get over it." she began slagging Skip off. I left the couch to find him, he needed someone right now, anyone but Tabby. I climbed the stairs, Lil'Wayne got louder as I neared his room and I swung the door open. He was laid on his back, on his bed, staring up at the ceiling and he had tears in his eyes, I'd never seen Skip cry. "Bro, you okay?" I asked, it was a stupid question but I needed him to explain. He sat up slowly and rubbed his eyes. "Why didn't I stay by her Beau? All I can think about is Isla. I want her back, but after everything I doubt she'd want to see me. It's completely hopeless." Just as he finished his sentence Tabby walked in and her face dropped.