Hopeless - The sequel to Breathless. A Janoskians fanfic.

41. "Ava Gina Brooks."

Beau held my hand tightly as I screamed in pain, his fingers clasped tightly over my emerald engagement ring. Beau and I had really made a life for ourselves, when we'd run away that night we ended up in Benalla, just two hours away. Beau still kept in contact with his family and James but kept quiet about Daniel. I knew they'd spoken, but I didn't want to ever hear about him again. "Just a few more pushes Isla and it'll be over." The nurse said soothingly and took my other hand. I took a deep breath and pushed, letting out a painful screech and the nurse gasped, "I can see the head, you're doing amazing!" she yelled excitedly. Beau had proposed to me four months after we settled down, he let me choose the ring and I picked an emerald ring because it reminded me of his eyes. I pushed again and the pain became unbearable, making me scream loudly and grip tighter onto Beau's hand. Suddenly a high pitched cry filled the room and my body felt relaxed, "it's a beautiful baby girl!" The nurse said, almost tearing up herself, and cleaned my baby daughters fresh skin.

Soon she was placed into my arms, I burst into tears, sobbing and kissed her tiny forehead. Beau smiled and cried as he looked down at the delicate girl we'd been waiting months to meet. "She's so beautiful." he continued crying and the midwife took her from my arms, placing her in Beau's. I collapsed into the bed, completely exhausted, I immediately fell in love with her, a kind of love I'd never felt before, an unconditional love that would never fade. She was taken to an incubator, so her tiny body could grow stronger and Beau kissed my cheek gently, "that was incredible, she's incredible, you're incredible." He was still sobbing and I smiled weakly. "I'm not sure about the name anymore, she doesn't look like a Poppy." I said, Poppy was the only name Beau and I had been able to agree on through my whole pregnancy. "I agree, I like Ava ." He said, walking over the incubator and staring at the tiny human being I'd just brought into the world. "Ava." I repeated, "Ava Gina Brooks." It had a ring to it, it was beautiful. "It's perfect." I smiled, so much my cheeks began to ache.

The nurse allowed beau to touch her hand and her tiny fingers wrapped around his index finger. "Hello Ava, my beautiful Ava." He cooed, he couldn't help but smile, that amazingly attractive smile. "You look just like your mummy." He spoke, she had dark, soft hair, almost identical to me when I was born. It would take a little while before she opened her eyes, I hoped they would be blue like mine. "She's very weak as she's 43 days early, and she will have to be monitored over night, but the birth went really well. Congratulations." The midwife hugged me gently and left the room, leaving our little family alone. "Get some rest beautiful, it's probably the last chance you'll get." Beau sat down by my side, "I'm going to phone my mum, do you want me to say anything from you?" He asked, I knew he felt guilty about contacting the others when I didn't want my old life to haunt me. "Tell her I'm sorry, tell them all I'm sorry and I love them." I spoke quietly, I missed them, more than I could put into words. Beau left the room leaving a fresh kiss mark on my sweaty forehead and I burrows my head into the pillow. "Goodnight Ava." I whispered before passing out from exhaustion.

I woke up to shouting, machines were beeping loudly, constantly and the small room was filled with bodies. I sat up, disorientated, rubbing my eyes in the blinding light. Beau was nowhere to be seen, and the bodies gathered around my baby girls incubator, "my baby, what's happening?!" I screamed, petrified. A nurse came over to my side, it's okay Miss.Rhodes, we have an excellent team of doctors." She held into my hand, but the pain in her eyes didn't convince me at all. I was strictly told to stay in bed but I couldn't let them fuss over my daughter without me by her side. I stood up and a dizziness washed over me, I found it hard to gain my balance, but my body was much lighter than the last time I'd stood up. I walked over to the incubator, Ava's tiny body was hooked up to machines, a doctor was pressing lightly on her chest and the beeping of the machine got faster and faster until finally it was one long, piercing sound. "I'm sorry, there's nothing else we could do." The doctor turned to face me, placing his stethoscope around his neck.

"W-w-what?" I questioned him, looking at my lifeless baby, girl. Another doctor lifted her eyelid and shone a torch into it. She had deep, big, brown eyes, exactly like Daniel's eyes, she was definitely Daniel's daughter. "Time of death, 3:49am." I collapsed onto the floor, my heart had broken, completely shattered and I felt unbelievable pain soar through my body. I screamed, I wanted to cry, but the tears just wouldn't leave my eyes, I was in agony. "Beau?!" I shouted, "please don't take my baby away!?" I continued. A nurse helped me up off the floor and aided me to the bed, I tried to fight her off, I tried to be beside my daughter, but I wasn't strong enough. "I'm so, so sorry." she said, her face full of sorrow. My baby was really dead. "Can I see her?" I asked, after I'd calmed down a bit, letting the news sink in. She carted the incubator to my side and I bent over it, my tears finally falling, splashing against her pale skin. I rested my hand on her expressionless face, a chill ran through me as her icy flesh came into contact with my own warm skin.

"I love you darling. My beautiful angel." I cried harder and the nurse wrapped her up in a blanket. "Do you want to hold her?" She asked, I wasn't sure if I was ready to hold her, but I took a deep breath and nodded. Her dead weight was forced into my arms and I cradled her closely. "How's my girls?!" Beau pushed open the doors, in his arms were a big pink teddy bear, a bunch of giant pink daisies and a handful of balloons, but that wasn't the only 'surprise' Luke was behind him. "Mum and Jai are here too! I'm sorry, everyone was just so excited." He smiled, before catching a glimpse at my year stained, blood shot eyes. "What's happened?!" He questioned, pushing Luke out if the room with the balloons, he dropped the flowers on the floor and gripped tightly to the fluffy, pink bear. "She's gone Beau." I managed to stutter, "her heart wasn't strong enough." I began crying again and held my daughter close to my body. The colour drained from Beau's face, "g-gone?" He questioned, I nodded and he fell on his knees, sobbing into his hands.

Two days later

I was handed the papers to sign, Ava's birth certificate, followed by her death certificate. I write Ava Gina Brooks in the neatest handwriting I wrote my name, signed the bottom and handed the papers to Beau. We had hardly spoken over the past two days and I refused to see Luke, Jai and even Gina. "Thank you." The doctor said, taking the papers from Beau and leaving the room. "Isla, talk to me?" Beau whispered, "please?" He finished and tried to connect our eyes. I looked away from him, out of the window, into the bright, summer morning and blocked Beau from my thoughts. "Alright, I get it, you're upset, but so am I! She was my daughter too!" He shouted, I continued to stare out if the window and simply replied "She was Daniel's daughter." I heard sniffling before the door swung open and I was left in silence.

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So this is it, the very final part. This probably isn't what any if you expected, and I actually cried so much writing this, but like I've said before I like shocking the readers and I don't want my fanfic to be the same as most others. I'M SO SORRY, PLEASE DINT HATE ME!

Thank you so, so much for reading, it's been amazing to see all your comments and feedback.

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Molly x