Secrets (A Severus Snape Story)

Chapter 33 - Secret Safe... Or Are We?

Tonks.

She was a Metamorphmagus, just like me. She could morph into anybody... even Snape. Of course, I fell for it. I knew Tonks, Sirius, and Remus were a bit suspicious on why I was close friends with Snape, but I didn't know they were going to go this far. Shit.

She stood at the doorway with wide eyes and her mouth hung open. She opened her mouth to speak, but closed it again. By now, her back was completely against the door and she tried to grab the door handle, but with my quick instinct, I quickly locked it with a charm.

"Raven! Open the door!" She shouted, jumbling the knob around. She had panic in her eyes, but I couldn't get our secret out... this wasn't some 'oh I stole your book' secret, this was quite important. This could ruin my life. I could get tormented if anyone found out I was in a 'relationship' with Severus Snape, feared Potion Master at Hogwarts.

"Tonks, just hear me out." I said calmly, my heart pounding. I can't get this secret out. I just can't. My life is worst enough already.

She turned to me with glaring eyes. "I don't think this needs explaining." She motioned to me and I felt a pang of guilt. I know... I know I shouldn't be doing this... but I couldn't help myself.

"Tonks, look, just come sit down and we'll talk about this. It's not what it looks like." I attempted to calm her down, the anxiety in my chest rising higher and higher. Without being seen, I took out my wand behind my back and cast a silencing charm on the room. I don't want anyone to hear this conversation.

She gulped and looked around, her eyes filled with different emotions. "It sure looks like it." She muttered, not daring to look me in the eye. I took a deep breath as she began to slowly walk towards me, but she kept his distance from me.

"Tonks, I swear... God, I don't know what to say." I mumbled the last part to myself. Do I lie or do I confess? If I lie, I have a higher risk of being caught with Severus. If I confess, I have a chance of everyone finding out that Severus and I are... buddies. God, I'm so confused. Are him and I together? No, we aren't. We're just buddies that share kisses every once and a while. Yea, that's it. Buddies that share kisses and love each other. That's the word. Buddies.

"Raven, just tell me it isn't true." She looked at me dead in the eye, his features showing seriousness and she wasn't joking. I took an intake of breath as I simply stared at her, not able to respond. What do I even say?

She scoffed and she rolled her eyes, throwing his hands in the air. "You are together with that git Snape." She turned to the door and frowned. "I can't believe you are associating with that asshole." She scoffed again and she crossed her arms, reminding me like a stubborn child. Tonks doesn't swear that much, but when she does, she's mad.

"T-Tonks... I'm sorry, but I've actually found somebody that actually likes me back. For once, somebody actually cares about me." I mumbled, my brain trying to function. I was so... tired of everything. I always had bad luck, even as a child, didn't I? I should have known that I was going to get caught. I knew it wasn't going to last.

"Oh, and like Sirius and Remus didn't care about you?! We care about you, but here you are, deciding that you want to date Snape because he's the only person that 'cares'! Are you alright? Did that pervert give you some kind potion?" She flung her hands in the air and ran a hand in his hair.

"N-No! He would never do that!" I stuttered, my brain failing to function properly. "I never said you guys never cared about me... but for once, I have a person that like likes me back."

She turned to me and raised an eyebrow. "He likes you back?" She asked, curiosity in her voice.

I nodded and looked at her with hopeful eyes. She gave a thinking look, as if she was processing what she said. Maybe she'll allow it... and not rat me out to the others.