Don't Listen to Your Heart

Mirrors

How would you define a girl who has a crush on a psychopath?

Does she have mental problems too?

Maybe the main problem is that I kinda understand his point of view, maybe just a little bit. But it's a start.

I remember I used to think like him a couple of years ago.

I've grown up in a house full of hate, my innocence as a baby was contaminated by rage and disappointment.

I have to admit that a couple of times I've been thinking about murders and revenge.

I think it's a kind of phase we all go through when we're mad and our demons want to get out and take control.

What I used to do whenever somebody hurt me is:

Crying, being super aggressive (in my own safe place) and then trying to slowly calm down.

I think that the problem with psychopaths is that they stop at the second one, and instead of calming down they act.

I'm actually kinda unsure about the first one.

I've rarely seen a psychopath crying but I think most of them do.

I'm not sure about Mr.March though.

He doesn't look like a man who cries.

He tortures and kills only because he feels unsatisfied.

Or, at least, this is what he says.

***

"What are you thinking about? Looks like something deep" Iris says pulling me back to reality.

I look around, I'm at Hotel Cortez.

But, lately, I'm more here than anywhere else.

"Does it happen often to you to fade into your own thought?" she asks,

"Just a couple of times" I admit looking at her.

"What are your thoughts about?"

"Have you ever seen Mr.March crying?" I ask as she stares at me with a small laugh,

"Not that I remember. If he did, he did it privately. He doesn't want people to know that he has weak moments"

"Right"

"Why do you asks?"

"I had a whole theory about psychopaths a couple of years ago"

"There's no theory with psychopaths honey. They live in their own world, they're unpredictable" she sweetly says,

"Guess you're right" I sigh.

"Alright. Now, tell me, since how long?" she asks with a smile,