I knew it was too good to be true. I allowed the tears to run down my face. I felt blessed because I got a few minutes with him all to myself. But so angry at the same time. How could he over react that much? Even after me explaining. I called Daniel back so I wouldn't feel so alone walking home. He answered but I was lost for words, I didn't want to speak to him, I didn't want to speak to anyone but River! "I can't do this, I'll talk to you later." I said to my brother. I ended the call and slipped my phone back in my front pocket before even speaking to him and walked along the harbor back home, tears streaming down my face.
I had a chance with the one person I love and I blew it! How could he be so obnoxious?!
If he actually liked me as much as I thought why would he just leave without letting me explain myself!
I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I didn't have to think about who it was - as usual. I knew it would be Daniel.
Incoming call: River
I felt myself begin to shake. I felt my anxiety take over my entire self. I let out a loud scream and threw my phone as far as I could see. I watched it shatter into a thousand small pieces of glass and plastic. I don't want anything to do with him again! I love him! I know he will never even look at me again! I should have known all along it was just a stupid game he was playing. How could he possibly have any interest in me?!
Oh Shit! HARMONI... WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU DONE YOU FUCKING IDIOT!!
The voice inside my head screamed at me as I realised I had lost my only way of communicating with my brother! The only person who would keep me sane! I had no energy to do anything anymore. I didn't want to go home. I didn't want to stay here. In this Country! I wanted to be like it was a few years ago! Both parents and my brother, we fought a lot more back then. But he was still my brother and I love him! And now I have no way of talking to him! What is he just gives up one me? What if he starts to forget?
I felt myself starting to breakdown. I sat at the side of a building, curling myself into a ball. Could I possibly be anymore of a disappointment?! I didn't think I had ever hated myself more than I did at this very moment.
Even though we hadn't spent much time together, I longed for River here, curled up beside me. Telling me it would all be okay..
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Forbidden Dedication
DragosteSeventeen year old, River White didn't care about anyone but himself. Why would he? He has everything he could ever need in life. Until he finds the one something - or someone he is missing. Harmoni has a burning passion for River. She feels like s...
