Dancing with Fire (John Pearce/Justice Crew Fanfic)

Chapter 36

* John’s POV *

Yesterday’s events were still replaying in my head, not allowing me to get a good sleep. Ever since I broke up with her, I hadn’t been the same, but clearly, I was the one to blame here.

She hasn’t been herself either. I could see the way she has been acting towards me, and with her new friend, Skylar. What she shows Skylar was partly her, but what she shows me was a remembrance of how badly I treated her. How badly I have broken her up.

And I regret everything.

Why can’t I man up? I should have took things differently and work things out, instead I let go of her because I was a coward. A selfish coward.

During the small confrontation we had at the diner last night, it was apparent that she may be hiding things from us. And yet, there was nothing we could do if she didn’t need our help.

I’m not your responsibility.

But I want to be. I want to protect her from harm, but I chose to break her heart. How can she trust me again?

How can I defend her if I’m not with her?

The whole time last night, she didn’t even dare to look at me. It was a slap in the face, but I knew I deserved it.

“Hey, you’re still gloomy.” No shit, Sherlock.  “What’s wrong?” Patricia greeted me while I was on my way to my car, about to go to school.

Confused how she suddenly appeared in my driveway, I asked her why she’s here. “Why are you here?”

She giggled, wrapping her arms with mine. “I’m here to check out on you, if you’re feeling better. What’s with the downbeat attitude?”

“Nothing, I’m just tired.” I responded, hoping she would shut it. I knew she apologised last night, but I didn’t mean she could come anytime she wanted to, especially now, I only wanted Kayla, no one else.

“Don’t worry, baby. I promise, tonight everything will be fine. I’ll make sure of that.” She smiled, comforting me like a little boy.

Before I climbed inside the car, she let go of me and patted my head, and then kissed me. Pulling away from her, she pouted, but her mood changed and just let it go. She waved her hand the whole time while I was reversing the car, and drove off. I could still see her waving from the mirror until I couldn’t see her anymore.

Well… That was weird.

*Kayla’s POV*

Have you ever felt like a broken record?

I did. That’s how I’ve been feeling lately. A broken record.

Happenings in the past as well as the present have been playing in my mind constantly. It’s not like I wanted it to, but it doesn’t stop whenever I want to. Actually, it doesn’t stop at all. I think I’m going crazy.

If you think I didn’t try and stop it, then you’re wrong, because that’s what I have been trying to do these past few days. Whenever I’m not in school, I’ll be at the gym, at the diner, or at the house trying to focus on other things. Unfortunately for me, I think my mind has a mind of its own, not letting me control it.

Even my dreams or nightmares were full of it. They just won’t stop. It’s weird though I thought these things only happen in the movies, but I think I have been hearing things. Or maybe, I’m just thinking aloud. I don’t know anymore.

It’s already 10am and as usual I’m still in bed, instead of school. Since John and I broke up, I found no reason to be in school to be honest, for the reason I’m not going to college anyway. Why do I need to waste more time in school when I can go out and work straight away? Lucky for me, they needed another hand at the diner, and they have accepted me there.