Life Happens

Always

A/N I'm so sorry I haven't updated in forever, but life and school just kinda got in the way
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So this is probably the last chapter, but if any of you guys want to read more of this story, I think will make a few one-shots on my multifandom-one-shot-collection which I will be publishing soon ❤️
- ENJOY

"Deeks, I want you to remember that I-" She didn't get any further with her sentence when their hands were ripped apart.

He tried taking deep breaths, but it didn't help. The air seemed hitched in his throat. No matter how hard he tried he still couldn't calm down. It's okay. She will be okay. My kids will be okay. Deeks tried, but the words seemed hollow, empty. Like they didn't really matter. He didn't want to loose her. He wasn't ready and he probably never would be. The thought ached in his heart. Like it was eating him from the inside out. The seconds felt like hours, and hours like years. Everything around him was spinning, twisting and turned. Like an animal trying to break its own bones. His dark thoughts blocked his mind. She will die. You will loose her forever. It's all your fault. You are the one to blame. How can you ever forgive yourself? You don't even deserve to live.
The words rung in his head, and his heart felt like it was being ripped out of his chest. How can you ever forgive yourself? That sentence repeated itself over and over again inside his head. "No, no, no..." Deeks tried but the voice kept talking to him. No one will ever forgive you! You deserve to burn in hell! Now the voice was yelling. He felt like he knew the voice but he couldn't figure out from where. Look at you. So pitiful. How does she love you? Why DID she love you? Why even bother with love, if all its going to do is get you killed. Love is death.
"If I die today it's okay. Loving can hurt, but it's the only thing that keeps us alive. Life is love. We live to find love and happiness. I have loved so if you kill me today it's okay. I know Kensi feels the same way. She was loved. I love her. Now and forever. That's the beauty of life. You just don't get that!" Hm... The voice went away. It hid in dark shadows of the E. R. Deeks felt like a weight lifted off of his shoulders. He felt oddly free. Air finally travelled freely through him, and before he knew of it he fell asleep. There he didn't know of the worries.

*dream*
"Kensi?! Kensi where are you?!" Deeks yelled as he ran down the empty white halls of the hospital. He ran and ran. Made turns to left and right. But it felt like he was running in circles. Like everything was one big maze. "Kensi?!" There she stood. At the end of a hallway. He started running towards her, but suddenly it felt like he hit an invisible wall. He fell to the floor. "Kensi! It's okay! I love you! I always will..." Deeks yelled, but Kensi couldn't hear him. She just stood there looking confused and out of place. Like an angel in hell. Suddenly people came out from behind Kensi. The creatures grabbed her arms and started pulling her away. She started screaming but Deeks couldn't hear her. Tears ran down her scared face. She looked so fragile. All he wanted was to go hug her and kiss her. To reassure her that everything would be okay. She kept on fighting. He could see her repeat the same word over and over again. "Deeks, Deeks, Deeks, Deeks..." His name. She was calling his name. Suddenly he felt his strength return, and he broke down the invisible wall. He ran to Kensi and kissed her. Everything disappeared. The evil creatures, the halls, all disappeared. They were the only thing there. Or where ever 'there' was.
*End Of Dream*

-Now he knew what it was she wanted him to remember. "Deeks, I want you to remember that I love you."-

"Mr. Deeks? Mr. Deeks! Please wake up!" Deeks opened his eyes only to stare into two very blue eyes. It was the nurse from before. Her read hair rested on her shoulders. "Mr. Deeks your girlfriend is out of surgery, she is..." Deeks grabbed the elderly woman's shoulders and shook them. "Where?! Is she okay?! Are the babies okay?! I need to know!" The now very scared nurse stared at him. He immediately removed his hands from her shoulders. He noticed that her shirt was curly. He quickly straightened it out. "Sorry." He said awkwardly. "Where..." The nurse pointed to the left. "Okay, thanks..." The nurse just stared at him as he left.

He walked into the room. Kensi was lying on the bed. In her arms were two infants. A boy and a girl. Deeks laughed relieved. "So those two monsters are ours, huh? We're parents now." Deeks said. Suddenly the word parent meant some very different to him. Not just giving a child food and shelter, but loving them with everything you have got. Being willing to die for them. Parents

"Yeah they are ours. Our children." She loved the sound of it. "I'm going to love you so much it hurts." Kensi giggled.
"And I'm going to be the most embarrassing dad ever." Kensi laughed hysterically but suddenly she also started crying. She was an emotional wreck. Crying and laughing. Maybe they were tears of happiness, maybe of sadness and shock. Maybe a mixture.
"Come here," Deeks said as he hugged her and the babies. "Shhh, it's over now, you are okay and our kids are okay. Everything will be okay. I love you. More than you can ever imagine." Deeks gently stroked her hair. Then he gave a kiss to each munchkin.
Kensi's tears dried out.
Deeks took a moment to look at his children. The girl had aqua turquoise eyes. If you looked closely you could see flakes of gold around her pupils. After looking even deeper into her eyes he noticed a birthmark in her right eye. It was just slightly more golden than her left. Kind of like her mothers.
The boy was a little more tan. Deeks could already see the surfer potential in him. He could see him swinging his salty wet hair and getting all the girls. Or boys. His eyes were ocean blue, like his fathers.

"Kensi what about names? We haven't really thought about..."
"It's okay Deeks, we're in no hurry. Though I have thought of names..." Deeks laughed at Kensi. He nodded at her to start. "Well, this handsome fella will be Samuel Donald Deeks - and this beauty will be Clara Henrietta Deeks." Kensi explained. A grin grew across Deeks's face. "What? What is making you so happy?" Deeks looked into her eyes. "My family is."

Thanks for everything guys!