Can you trust me? Vkook FANFICTION

16. Hug me

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The ship we were leaving in was a small and narrow one, completely different from how it had looked from the outside. My seat had a small window beside it and i touched it gently with my fingertips.

Looking out at earth for something that probably would be the last time.

I had found so much joy on this planet.

Everyday had been an adventure, full of fun. With Jungkook...

I freed my finger from the cold window quickly, as if frost would spread if i didn't.

Let's not think about him...

After all, Jungkook is...

"Are you ready to leave?"

Jin suddenly entered the room wearing his usual awkward smile.

"Yeah... You're not coming?", i asked.

He shoke his head.

"My resturant is gonna go out of business.", he said.

I laughed a bit but then became serious again.

"I see... Then please...", i said.

Jin tilted his head in curiosity.

"Please watch over them all."

Jungkook.

You'll find happiness, right?

After all, i couldn't let them kill you at that time. Never. Although, we're apart and although we didn't even get to say goodbye properly, i am happy that it turned out like this.

My sin won't be as big.

My greedy choice will be forgotten by you, although i will still reflect on it everyday for the rest of my life.

I'll think of you every remaining day of my life, as a punishment for making that choice.

I truly do love you.

...it feels like i'm dying.
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I sat huddled into a ball on the chair in front of my computer. Empty of thoughts, i drew a sea of small flowers on the small notebook next to the keyboard.

Jimin suddenly came up behind me and stuck his head out to look at the screen. He sighed.

"How do people have time to write all of these hateful comments?", he said.

I smiled an empty smile.

"I haven't updated for a long time now after all... For about 3 months?", i said.

I could feel Jimin looking at me, giving me that worried look again. He wanted to help me, he was that kind of person. However, somehow and somewhere inside of me, it felt like i couldn't be helped. Couldn't be reached.