Thoughts of a Million Stars

SHE

 I am the eldest sibling in the family so I had no one to keep me at bay. I wish I had an older brother or sister but I don't. Yet I'm still thankful coz I do have my older cousins for me, but not too long coz they, too, have their own family to look out to. She is someone whom I look up to as an older sister, I'm afraid she doesn't knew it. I love the way she scolds and beats me up whenever I do wrong and silly things not just to others but also to myself as well. Except for my family, no one ever known me as well as she does. I honestly missed those times when she runs over me and gives me a hell of a smack and slap through me. Time goes really fast and we've friends for such a long time. I just realized, ever since I'm longing for someone who could actually be there for me and treat me like someone to be cared for. My mistake is that, I accidentally expect her to do that for me. She puts towel on my back when I'm sweat, She cares like an "ate" towards me and I really admire her for that. If only I could be a half of person that she is, maybe I'm atleast better. I've had new friends yet she is still the one whom I wanna run in to whenever I've had problems but the funny thing is, I usually don't speak with her. Many things have happened to me yet she doesn't come to know anything, I intentionally don't wanna let her know. WHY? coz I don't wanna bother her. Instead, I wanna see her from a far with her friends wearing a great smile. I do hope she does best in everything she does. SHE'S my FRIEND, MY SISTER, MY ATE...  and I WISH HER WELL, VERY WELL.