Lonely eyes

Chapter 22

Alex P.O.V
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It's been about a month since Gus came back into my life and everything with him is going great we're back to being close if not closer, I don't panic when he walks out the door or heads home cause I know he's coming back and he's here for good. But here lately there's been hauntings in my dreams of him leaving, maybe I'll never get over the fear that he might up and leave again. Who knows.

As for me and Colton I don't know where we stand. We're back and forth with fighting back and forth of wanting nothing to do with each other and craving each other's touch. There no in between right now, we either love or hate each other. All depends on the day and his bi polar moods, he's getting really tiring to be honest.. Whatever.

James on the other hand is great company like usual, Margot is now allowed visitors and he says she's doing great he begs for Colton to go but of course he doesn't. He tells me she asks about me a lot and it makes me smile to know she thinks about me, James always returns from the visits with a wide smile and glassy eyes. I know he misses her but after a week of the visitation being open James came home tears streaming down his face with the widest smile I have ever seen him wear and as I pulled him into a hug I couldn't help but smile when I heard him say "she's becoming herself again." And that night we sat and talked about the time before the drinking.

As for me myself, right now I lay on my stomach on Jess bed in her dark lavender purple painted, band posters covered, fairy lights lite room listening to Kasy ramble on and on about how it's not nice of me to not visit her or Jess for over 2 months and not bringing up the fact I have a brother (who she says is super hot) I just roll my eyes laying my cheek on my hand looking up at Jess who sits to my right. She smiles at me chuckling a little as she rubs my back mouthing "it's all ok." I smile at her as electricity shots up my back from her touch.

I don't think I ever stopped loving her.

"Okay okay Kas we get it your mad at me, and your right I should of opened up and told you guys everything from the start, but I was scared... I remember how sad you guys were when you guys noticed my scars. I couldn't take hurting you guys more by telling you the true reason why."

"Yah plus she probably knew if she told us you'd kidnap her and ain't no body want to deal with that source of crazy. And come here I want to play with your hair" Jess says easing the mood in the room causing me to laugh "yah see I had my reasons." I say sitting up with my back towards Jess so she has full access to my hair.

"Ok Ok, your off the hook but seriously you have to come around more often!!" Kasy says with a smile and plops down on the bed as she watches Jess Dutch braid my hair, after all my hair is braided we go into the kitchen grabbing junk food and head back to Jess room.

After a while of catching up I found out Jess was single she said it just didn't work out but something told me it was more then that but I let it go, Kasy and her man are still going strong I was happy for her.

"Ugh..!" Jess groans out of no where snapping mine and Kasy attention from our drying nail polish "what?" We say in sync causing us to laugh, "I want to get drunk dude it's been too long since we've all went to a party." Jess says after we all stop laughing.

She was right we haven't gone to a party since the one we all went to when I first got with Colton, that was about 4 months ago. "I know someone who could hook us up with a party to go to." Jess and Kasy's eyes light up with my words I laugh taking that as a yes and grab my phone from my purse dialing their number then hold the phone up to my ear. After two rings he answers.

"Hello, Gus?" I ask and Kasy perks up to his name causing me and Jess to roll out eyes and laughs.

"Hey sis what's up?" He says through the phone.

"Well me and my friends were looking for a party to go to and I figured you know where we could find one." I smile as I hear him act like he was questioning telling me a place to go.

"Haha I'm just kidding, actually I'm going to one now, send me an address and I'll come get you guys." He says finally putting the mister responsible act up.

My smile widens "that's great yah ok, yah love you to Bubba."

I hang up then text him Jess address while filling in the girls, they scream with excitement and scramble to get ready. My phone quickly buzzes after I sent the message. "He says he'll be here in 30!" I announce jumping off the bed and search Jess closet for something to wear.

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The door bell rings and I run from Jess room in the back on the one level house to answer the door, as I reach the door I smooth down my outfit, I hadn't brought any clothes with no plan of staying or going to the party but me and Jess are the same size in just about everything, I had on a white tank top that has a skull with a flower design across the left side, the jeans Jess picked out hugged all the curves of my lower half perfectly with horizontal rips all the way down the front side of the pant legs, I wore stocking under it so my bare skin wasn't perfectly visible all pulled together with a pair of studded combat boots.

I open the door and Gus looks me over as I welcome him inside, "you look nice sis." He says with a smile then pulls me into a hug. I look over his simple black jeans and plan white t-shirt with his hair tamed back with a "Obey" black and red snap back. "You too Bubba, come on the girls are in the room."

He follows me to Jess room explaining who party we were going to and where it's at I smile and nod to him as I open the door. Jess sat at her vanity finishing her smoky eye make up and fine mascara, she wore a corset crop top that had a crossed back with a double layered galaxy shirt topped off with her black ankle boot wedges.

"Jess this is my brother Gus, Gus this is one of my best friends Jess." Jess puts away the rest of her make up before welcoming Gus with a hug, "Best friend and ex girlfriend, same oh same oh." She says with a smirk and a wink causing my eyes to wide heat raising through my cheeks. Gus looks shock and turns to me with a confused look "seriously?" He ask.

"Yah.. I'm bi she's lesbian.." I say scratching the back of my neck laughing awkwardly. "That's great." Gus says causing me to look at him, he had a wide smile across his face easing all my worry away. Jess smiles and calls for Kasy, she walks out of the connected bathroom of Jess room in a pink cocktail strapless dress, covered with a leather jacket that was scrunched up at her elbow and her ankle boots. She was always ready for a party I swear.

She messes with the flared out of the dress before looking up with a smile, she walks with her hand scratched out shaking Gus hand. "This is Kasy my other best friend."

"Nice to met you guys." Gus says with a smile that shows off his teeth perfectly, he turns to me with a smirk and ask "you date this one to?" Kasy nearly died choking on air as me and Jess burst up laughing, "no! Hahah oh my god wow Gus." I say in between laughs while smacking his arm causing him to just smile. We grab our purses and phones then head out.

Party time!