Lonely eyes

Chapter 19

Alex P.O.V
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It's been about a month since Colton and James had submitted Margot, Colton's mother, into a mental health and rehab facility. The tension in the house is thick and awkward, I don't quiet understand why Colton is so angry all the time but he is. He snaps at the smallest things then comes back in a mess of tears apologizing and short minutes later is back to snapping everyone's heads off.

James on the other hand is slowly gaining back color in his eyes, sending Margot away was the hardest on James at first. He wouldn't leave his bedroom and drank the rest of the booze in the house got me and Colton worrying that he was gonna drink himself into Colton's mothers shoes. But thankfully he stopped drinking when it was all gone, he slowly started opening up again and now he laughs and is slowly becoming himself again, unfortunately though Colton had traded places with James. Except a bit worse, he stopped eating he was violent and distant.

He would leave in the middle of the night and not return till two in the after noon the next day and never would he tell me nor James where he'd ran off to. It was getting tiring but I put up with it cause I know he's in pain and just needs everyone to back off but not give up. He's gonna need us when he gets out of this I know. I've been there.

I sit on mine and Colton's bed reading a book when the door suddenly flew open causing me to jump so hard my book fumbled from my hands. I look up about to ask what the hell but I see Colton's green eyes rimmed with red and his face stained with tears, I sit up on my knees as he walks closer burying his face in my chest and hair heaving a sob as I wrap my arms around his shoulders rubbing his back in long slow circled. "Shhh hey baby it's ok breathe it's ok shhh" I reassure in a soft voice smoothing his shakes away. He pushes back to where I'm laying on my back his arms wrapped around my torso his face still hidden away against my chest.

I rub his back till his breathes become slow and even. I stare at the ceiling letting my thoughts take all of my focus, when the door creaks it snaps me back to reality. James stands half in the door frame half out, I raise my finger to my mouth shushing him then glance down to the sleeping Colton who cradles my body with his head rested on my chest.

"Everything okay?" James whispers stepping in the room. I nod giving him a small smile as I run my hand down Colton's black hair, he looks so peaceful when he sleeps, I think to myself. "Do you need anything?" James asks breaking me from my thoughts again.

"Actually can you hand me my book? He had startled me when he came in I dropped it to the floor." I half laugh whisper while pointing to my book that was over turned on the floor. James smiles then nods picking up the book and handing it to me, Colton shifts causing me to freeze for a second then relax when a soft snore comes from his lips. I smile then mouth a thanks to James as he leaves the room softly closing the door behind him.

I continue to read my book, but no matter how much I tried to endure all my attention to the words along the page I couldn't get all the  thoughts out of my mind, I couldn't quiet the questions everyone was to scared to say but everyone thought.

'What if Colton never gets better... What if he stays in this self destruct mode, and how long will I be able to handle it before I snap also.'

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Colton P.O.V
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I wake up cuddled up to Alex's chest my arms wrapped around her back, I raise my head and find her reading a book. I take my arms from her back sitting up on my knees by her feet. She puts down her book and smiles at me, she reminds me so much of my mother that smile the way she cares for me. Almost everything that was my mother before she broke, is Alex, some days I love it some days I hate it I hate myself for sending my mother away what kind of son does that I'm the man in this house I'm suppose to care for her, protect her. And I just sent her away.

Flash back:
I walk along side James into their bedroom. She is awake sitting in the bed with her back up against the wall her head in her hands, she looks up as we step to the end of the bed. "Hey baby" she smiles at James, her intoxicated and hung over state has wore off and just for a little while till she walks down stairs she'll be her self again. This is gonna be harder then I thought. Her eyes shift to me, and her smile grows, "Colton how are you.. Is everything alright?" She asks as she stocks her hair taming it to one side, she is beautiful.. She use to be at least. I run my hand through my hair forcing a smile and sitting on the edge of the bed as James takes a stand be side me forcing the same small smile, I take my mothers hand and look her in her emerald eyes.

"Hi mom."  My voice shakes and I clear my throat and continue " Mom, I love you and it's because I love you that I'm..." I look up at James who's lifeless eyes are watering but a smile still played across his lips, "that were doing this.. And it's for your best Mom."

Her smile faded and she grips my hand tighter her eyes filling with concern, "do what sweetie?" She looks between me and James before asking again "Do what?" Her voice goes from sweet to cold, and in that moment she's gone.

"You need help Margot." James says while putting a hand on her shoulder. She looks at us with confusion then realization and her eyes go wide, "no.." She whispers and I say "Mom there's people here to take you to" "No!" She yells but I continue, "Mom your going to a mental and rehab facility, you need help."

My mom loses it collapsing in a mess of tears and sobs she looks up her eyes red and cheeks puffy. "Please Colton!" She begs and I let the tears fall I look up and see James taking her into his arm, he also is crying. "I'm sorry.." I whisper rubbing her back.

It was then the people in white coats walk through the door holding my mothers belongings and take her away.

End of flash back.:

"Colton? Colton!" Alex shakes my shoulder, bringing me back to real time. I whip my face from the tears that stream down it I get up pushing Alex away from me. I ignore her calls of my name and grab my keys from the hall nightstand throwing on my jacket and run down the stairs, I need a drink.

I swing open the door and a men stands in front of me mid knock and full of shock, he is tall and has the same vibrant blue eyes as Alex. He has jet black spiked up hair that is tamed back with jell and a red and black suicide silence snap back gauges pierce his ears. He looks about 20. He lowers his hand and gives me a grim smile "Hello." "Hey?" I ask in frustration and impatience, "I'm looking for Alex." He says leaning against the door fame aimlessly looking behind me.

"Gus..?" Alex asks from behind me, I turn looking at her my eyes furrow with confusion, Gus as in her brother Gus? Whatever I don't care. I push past him and get in my car, I have enough shit to deal with I don't need her brothers too. I pull out of the drive in high speed then race down the road putting as much distant between me and that house as I could.