Kitten, Neko |Phan and KicktheStickz.|

.Chapter 5.

Phil's POV,

"Come on phil wake up now. Time to go to bed." Dan says and tickles my ears. I shake my head and burry my head into his lap. "Noooo.... I want to sleep hear." I whine and he laughs.

"Come on, keys go to bed." He says and I nod. I stretch and yawn for a long period of time and I see the Chris and PJ aren't  here and I smile a little bit. I suddenly get picked up bridal style and I whimper from the loss of warmth.

"Woah, you are really light." Dan says surprised and I shake my head. "I shouldn't be." I whisper so quietly only I could hear and he drags me out the stairs I see that we are all sharing a bed which is completely fine with me and that the two boys where top and tailing. I go and sleep next to Chris as Dan sleeps next to me o PJ.

I see Chris wrap his tail around himself and pull the covers onto of him. I walk back down stairs and get my bag, I get a massive grey hoodie out from it and put it on and put PJ bottoms on  and then walk back upstairs.

I pull the hoodie over my head and curl up into a little ball and wrap my tail around myself. "What is all of your guys favourite animals?" PJ asks suddenly and I smile and we all sit up.

(Plz tell me what PJ's and Chris's FAV animals are in comments.)

"Llama" Dan says straight away. "Why the heck a llama?" I ask and he laughs then shrugs. "I don't know there just really cool and unusual and I like that so they are my favourite animal." Dan speaks and PJ and Chris laugh.

"Mine is a lion as they are fierce yet extremely cute at the same time." I say and they all nod. "What is your favourite band?" I ask them all and they all think hard. "Muse" Dan says and I smile, "That is a pretty damn good band" I agree and we just kept on talking till one o'clock in the morning when I fell asleep again.

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Dans POV,
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Phil suddenly curls up into a ball and falls sound asleep and we all look at him in surprise, "Well that was quick." Chris says and we all giggle quietly. I look at how cute he is, his little tail wrapped around himself to keep him warm and his massive hoodie covering up what's under his sleeve.

"He's so cute when he's sleeping." I whisper to everyone and they all smile at me. "You guys are really cute together you know. Hopefully you two get together, your perfect for each other." PJ says and I smirk at PJ. "Thanks. And you and Chris aren't that bad to be honest," I say and wink at the two and Chris nods.

"I know right where beautiful together." He says in a girls voice and I try to stifle a laugh. I see PJ roll down his sleeves out of the corner of my eye and see that he's rolled his sleeve to the end of his fingers, I just shrug and smile at Phil. "He's beautiful." I whisper and they smile.

"Guys there is something you need to know about Phil.." Chris says suddenly and I look at him straight away. "Go on?" We both question and he looks down. "Oh god he's gunna kill me for this," I hear Chris whisper to himself and I shake my head.

"Promise me not to tell anyone I said this, not even Phil okay, right.." Chris outburst and I widen my eyes. "Phil also used to get bullied back in our old school, but worse then PJ even, and PJ you have had some shit but Phil has had worse then you which I can't even see is possible but it is." He whispers the last part and I nod for him to continue.

"They used to call him a fat ugly pathetic fagot and that he's should go kill himself, I can't tell you how many times they brought a knife into school." He whimpers and me and PJ look at each other wide eyed.

"He got anxiety from it and as they called him fat all the time it started to fix into his brain and make him believe it, as it continued Phil got worse and worse and eventually stopped eating all together. He soon became anorexic." Chris chokes the last word out as tears start streaming down his cheeks.

PJ rushed him over to us and he sat it the middle of us as PJ comforted him, I rubbed his hand to calm him down. "he gets panic attacks often and some times can't escape from them with his medication. When these panic attacks happen he would fully stop eating for 5 days until he had to eat to survive." He sobs quietly and I rub his back.

"Him mum and dad don't know any of this apart form him having anxiety. I used to help him as sometimes he would come hone with chunks of his tail missing and blood coming down his face." PJ sobs and PJ hoes and hugs him.

"He doesn't know that I know but I feel that you should know this as well. As long as you do not judge people in any way." Chris says and I shake my head, of course I don't judge people. "It's not there fault that there like this." I whisper and he nods.

"Right, Phil he um.." Chris stutters. He leans over to Phil and grabs the hem of his sleeve on his jumper, my eyes widen and I see Chris roll up Phil's sleeves gently, revealing the mashed up arm. 

There where thunders of cuts on his arms, lines and words carved into his ghostly skin, I can't believe something beautiful would do that to himself,

I feel tears roll down my cheeks as I put a hand on my mouth, I see Phil shuffle in his sleep. Chris stays deadly still and then he slowly pulls the sleeves down again.

"Oh my god, does he know that you know?" PJ asks and Chris shakes his head. "I'm sorry, I just felt that I could trust you guys as you sent annoyed about his anxiety." He tells us and I nod. "When did you find out?" I ask and he shakes his head.

"We were in school and I saw it under his sleeve and then when I went to his house the and day I saw the razor at the back of the cabinet which had blood on,
He knows that I know about his anorexia as he showed me his stomach." Chris says then pulls up Phil's jumper a little bit and I stare at how thin he is... "Holy shit.." PJ says and I just stare.

Not one piece on there, it wasn't that bad but his stomach was sunk in a little bit, I saw a few cuts as well and Chris noticed and pulled it down straight away. "Oh my god I didn't know that there was cuts on his stomach, oh my god Philly." He coaks out and I sob silently.

"No.... My little kitten,"
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Hey, sad news. My hamster died today. :.( I'm sad.... So I wrote a sad chapter, hope you like it and talk later. (RIP Alfie)

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