Kitten, Neko |Phan and KicktheStickz.|

.Chapter 21.

Phil's POV.

I sit there, feeling embarrassed and upset about them seeing my panic attacks in full swings and me screaming from nightmares. "Are you okay Phil?"  Dans voice rings through my ears and I nod slightly. Scared of him slightly.

"What was the dream about?" Dan asks and I shake my head. I ask Chris and PJ to leave and they do as I say.
I look down and fiddle with my sleeve on my wrist, resisting the urge to cut at the moment.

"Y...You'll never hurt me.. Right?" I ask, shyly and he moves across from me. "I will never hurt you, ever. Why?" He asks and I felt uncomfortable that I'm sharing this with him..
"The dream... You said that I was useless and then you hit me and then you got angry because I... I didn't by you alcohol and then you started beating me up.. I was begging you to stop but you kept calling me horrible names and hitting." I tell him as them fords, ring deathly loud in my ears.

Worthless,
Freak,
Useless.

I scratch at my wrists slowly. Trying to feel release but Dan noticed and stopped me straight away. "Phil. Honey, I won't do that at all, don't but yourself now. You've been doing so well." He pleads and I shake my head.

"I need to, it hurts Dan." I whisper and he shakes his head. Picking me up and placing me on my lap. Holding my hands as he was trying to distract me from hurting myself. My tail wraps around my waist slowly and I buried my head in his chest. Smelling his beautiful scent.

"Why would you have a dream like that?" He asks and I just shook my head. "I don't really know. I tend to have scary dreams. I feel sorry for Chris. He's going to have to live with me." I say and he shakes his head. "It's fine okay babe? Your beautiful, did you know that?" Dan says and I shrug. Looking in the mirror opposite us. And shaking my head faintly. Looking at how pale and fat I am. What am I doing?

Why am I still here?

I should just fucking commit. No one will care anyway, will they? I'm just a fucking useless shit. Scared skin. Anorexic freak. Ugly twat..... Faggot. "Phil! Honey!" Dan snaps his two fingers In front of my face and I get taken away from my day dream. I itch my wrists as I look up at Dan. My wrists stinging for release even more now.

"Phil, please stop itching your wrists." Dan says and I see the boys walk in. Smiling sympathetically at me. I just look down, feeling ashamed. I see PJ's eyes look down at his wrists before looking at mine than to my face. I smile sadly at him. Knowing that he is going through the same thing.

I mouth 'I'm sorry' to him but he only shrugs. My eyes widen when I see him mouth something.

"Guys, I need to tell you something."
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Hey! I'm hope that you enjoyed this small chapter. I'm sorry I'm really lazy. Anyway I hope you enjoyed and comment telling em if you did. I've found out Pierce The Veil today. And I'm already amazed. Not as Amazed as MCR though, Nothing can beat MCR. Sorry for all them TØP and FOB Lovers, but MCR is beautiful. (I do love TØP And FOB though! And Ghost Town. If you don't know them you should! X)

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