Kitten, Neko |Phan and KicktheStickz.|

.Chapter 31.

(Dan before he attempted suicide.)

Dans POV.

I slowly go into the drawer and search until I find a thin but strong rope. I take it out before locking my bedroom door. Why do I have a rope you ask? Just in case they words that they called me got to much for me to handle.

I slowly walk to the bathroom and grab the sharp, thin knife that I kept in the back of the cabinets and leave my bathroom. I tie the rope on the cupboard. I'm so scared. Shocked that I am actually going to do this. But I deserve it right. I'm alone. I feel so alone. So I am alone. Phil never really liked me. Why would he like such a shit fucking person like me. A person who is to fucking fat, Just an... Ugly being.

I make sure that the noose is tight and slowly walk over and grab a piece of paper before I start to writing.

Dear person who ever finds this.

I'm so sorry that I you have had to put up with me for the past 17 years of you lives. I must have made it terrible huh. PJ. I'm so sorry that I never helped enough. That I never was good enough for you. I hope you stay safe. Please. Chris loves you. Don't let your anxiety tell you wrong.

Chris, you have been an amazing friend for the past two months of my life. Your so funny and weep me to be around. Your funny jokes always make me crack up in some weird way even if there not funny at all.

Mum and Adrian. I'm so sorry that you have seen me like this. But you needed to know the truth, I'm to ugly and fat to be alive anymore. Don't blame yourselves for anything. It's not your fault. It's the bullies in the old school. I could hide the bruises so well. Don't think of anything bad and please don't miss me. I'm not deserved to be missed.

And Phil.. My beautiful boyfriend even if you don't think that. How you tried to kill yourself just a Few hours ago and now here I am, because the words just got to em so badly. I am so fucking sorry. I love you. You know tags right. Find someone else. Don't take your life again to try and be with me because it's just going to make me feel worse then I already feel. Find someone else kitten. Your so insecure of yourself that you don't see how perfect you truly are. I. Just so sorry that I'm so worthless to even make you think that you are. I love you,

I'm so sorry you had to find me this way.

Miss you already.

Dan. XxX...

I place that on the cabinet and grab the knife I press it hard against the wrist before swiping across. I hiss loudly as it went straight through my wrist, crimson beads already falling down my wrist, it already looked deep. But I still continued.

I copied the motion again but on the other hand. This time on my left, I made fewer but deeper cuts on my left wrist until I put a few last. Deep cuts on my right arm. Kicking myself to try and not to scream from the pain. Tears pouring down my face from the hurt that was caused whilst doing that. How does Phil do that and enjoy it. But that's when I felt slight release but I felt my vision slowly blurring from the corners inwards.

"Fuck. Fuck shit." I stumble over to the rope. Standing on the bed and wrapping the perfect loop around my neck. It feeling already tight until I kick off the bed. The feeling of suddenly not being able to breath over powers me and I gasp for air. But my eyes felt to droopy as I fell into my slumber, that last thing I would feel on this tragic world.

Was hurt,

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Phil's POV
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I see PJ burst in and run over to me. Breathless and tear stained cheeks, Dans mum instantly runs over to PJ and hugs him tightly. "PJ it will be okay Hunny. Don't worry your safe now." She says and I looked at her questioningly before I noticed that he wasn't wearing his pastel pink jumper. He was wearing Dans black jumper.

She saw his self harm and anorexia.

Chris soon went over and hugged his boyfriend tightly before kissing him quickly on the lips. PJ blushed shyly and handed Linda a not, her eyes widened as we all stared at her.

She suddenly passed it to me and tapped where I should read. My eyes widened as I did though and I actually felt like I could hear him saying them.

Find someone else.

I'm not worth it

Don't kill yourself because of me.

I love you.

Tears rolled down my face as I handed it to Adrian before noticing a nurse coming over to me. "Are you okay, we need to sort the bandages out now." I just nod and I walk over with her. My tail wrapping around my hand for a change and my whiskers drooped downwards and my ears fell down as well.

This is all the signs on the Neko that shows that there really upset. Really. Really upset. When a Neko's tail wraps around there hand. That's when they feel ultimately upset. So you could tell what emotion I was feeling like.

I couldn't believe he actually was going to do it like he planned it. The note. The words I love you underlined. How he didn't want me to waste time mourning over him and for me to find someone else.

But how can I find someone else?

When I love you Daniel...
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