Europe Change it - Book 4 'Am I good enough?' Katherine Cimorelli Fanfiction

Part 26

'Oh my god lisa' I said shocked and went back down and tried to get her awake
All those people were still standing around us but now they all looked very shocked
'Don't look like this.. get a doctor!!!' I yelled at them and a women went away
'Lisa c'mon' I whispered and still tried her to wake up
She just laid there.... without saying a word
Her face was very pale.. it was white as paper..
About 5 minutes later a doctor ran over me and pushed me away from lisa
He picked her up and brought her in a room... I wasn't allowed to follow so I stayed outside right before her door
After Lisas finally okay with us this happened...
My life was about to get better but now?
I began to cry again and went down to the floor which was very dirty. Obviously
I laid my hand on my belly and looked at it...
It's destroying everything...
The last time I got pregnant it nearly separated me from my family and now it's killing lisa...
It's all my fault...
'What if I just do it?
I'm still here and maybe lisa gets better then' I thought loud
'Do what?' A voice asked and I looked up
Amy was standing there
I began to cry harder.. I never was happier to see my sister
I just stood up and hugged her
Tears rolled down my cheeks
I sobbed very loud and cried into her sweater
'Hey kath calm what happened?' She asked worried
'Lisa and my baby and...' I cried and talked not very understandable
'Kath calm down...' amy whispered
'She's in there cause of me..' I cried harder
'No.. it's not your fault' amy said