Europe Change it - Book 4 'Am I good enough?' Katherine Cimorelli Fanfiction

Part 46

-One week later-
Well, Kall got weirder day by day. When I asked him to feel our daughter, he always looked away, and twitched. It looked like he would be afraid, but it also looked like he doesn't want to get in contact with her. With me either. It really hurt me. His hands were always cold. They weren't warm and safe. I often thought about it. Then, I always ignored my inner voice but the last days, I couldn't ignore it anymore.
Right now I'm sitting here with Amy and tell her about my feelings.
I spent the last 2 hours with Amy and cried since over 30 minutes.
'Calm down Kathy. Kall is an angelic boy and is just excited about his daughter. He's afraid to touch her bc he's afraid of hurting her. What do you think was with Nick? At first he was afraid to touch Christina's baby bump too, but no one knew this.' Amy tried to make me smile. At this moment, my little girl played football. The last days she didn't tickle me like she did at first. No, since Kall started being cold, she played football.
I quickly closed my eyes hardly and gasped a little.
'Kath?? You okay??' she asked worried.
'Ya, just a little football player.' I answered and smiled a bit. It felt so good to talk about my little girl.
'Wanna feel your niece?'
'Um...' she stuttered.
'Everyone wants to touch my baby bump, just you don't want... Do I something wrong?'
'No omg Kathy! I love you and her... Okay now you think I'm crazy... But sometimes I'm quickly jealous... Your little girl is already so big and I always think of me... I'm short and it feels weird to touch her. Don't judge me please...' she said. I just grabbed her hand and put it on my baby bump. Amy got her angelic smile and I closed my eyes.
-a few hours later (this evening at 10pm-
Amy and I talked a lot and we also baked lots of cookies. I was so cookie addicted. We had so much fun and my girl slept the rest of the afternoon.
Now I'm laying in my bed and waited for Kall to come home. I put a plate of cookies on his shelve because he always loved my self-made cookies. I waited and waited but he didn't come home. I started shaking. My body froze. I took my phone and tried to call him... No response. I waited another 30 minutes... One hour... I tried to call him like 15 times. He never came that late. Around 11:45pm I tried to call him once again and heard a phone vibrating. I didn't hear it before. I stood up and went to his little desk. I put his stuff away and found his phone. Of course I knew his password. I typed his code in and then I let the phone fall down. I started sobbing and sat down. Like a thousand messages from my best friend. Thousand of pictures of them kissing... Thousand of calls.... I put my hands on my belly and the tears fell on my belly. Suddenly I screamed out loud....
'NOOOO!!!'
Lisa opened the door and ran up to me. She started at his phone which laid on the bottom. She took it and read. Then she hugged me really tight.