Europe Change it - Book 4 'Am I good enough?' Katherine Cimorelli Fanfiction

Part 48

I just didn't came back to normality
It was two days after Kallen left me and I just cried all the time
I began to feel depressed again but I wasn't able to cut myself again
I just couldn't the inner voice inside of me was controlling me so hard..
It said that I need to do something to me
I needed something to get out of this world for a while
It was 10 pm when I went into the kitchen as I spotted a bottle of wine on the counter
I just grabbed it without spending one though on my baby
I totally forgot my child in that moment
I just cried and began to drink
I drank without being me
I closed my door and went down to the bottom
I cried and drank nearly the half bottle within 5min
I nearly screamed cause of my crying
It was hurting so deep inside of me
I slowly began to feel dizzy after a while
It was a good feeling
I wasn't able to feel the pain anymore
I continued drinking and it felt better swallow for swallow
I was totally knocked out as I heart Christina and Amy running into my room
'Hey kath stop!!' Christina panicked and took the bottle out of my hand
'Give it!!' I yelled crying and laughing at the same time
'No Katherine you're pregnant stop!!' She answered
'I'm what?' I laughed
'You're pregnant kathy please' she begged
'Me? Pregnant? Haha noo your funny lisa' I looked at my big sister
'Come on stand up!' She pulled me up and into my bed
'You need to sleep!' She hissed a bit
'Naaaaw I don't wanna sleep!!' I yelled and tried to grab the bottle again