Ruins.

Chapter 5~"stay"

9:43am, Tuesday. July.
I've already started showing. I'm now three months pregnant. I roll up my shirt and look in the full sized mirror.
"I just don't want to raise you alone" I say quietly. Mom left the choice up to me to keep it or put it up for adoption.

Ron proposed to his boyfriend. They are pretty excited. They've even talked about having children when their done with school. Me and Ron have been hanging out more often and really getting to know each other. I still haven't told him I'm 'expecting', I'm pretty sure he can tell though.

"Honey we have to go to the doctors now!" I still haven't gotten dressed.
"Yes, one second!" I shut the door and put on some lose jeans and a black t-shirt. I run downstairs and put on my converse and get in the car.
"Have you eaten?" My asks as she starts to drive. I turn down the radio and out my phone beside me leg.
"No, I just got dressed." She laughs.

We arrive at the doctors and he does my ultrasound. I look at the screen seeing the blurry image of the baby.
"Would you like to know the gender?" I look to my mom and smile.
"I guess" I keep looking at the screen with a small smile on my face.
"Your going to be having a baby boy" I just smile.

We go to a McDonald's and have lunch. As I start to eat, my phone rings.
"Hello?" I say trying to sallow my food.
"Hi, this is adoption services" I look at my mom.
"What?" I never called you.
"We were wondering if you would like a closed or open adoption when the baby's born." I stand up and walk outside.
"I'm keeping the baby. Who called you?"
"Janice Murray" I hang up the phone. I walk back inside and sit with my mom and continue eating.

5:58 Tuesday.
Me, Ron, and Chelsea walk around the mall. I people watch as they talk about their future.
"What if I had kids? Mad, do you think me and justice could have kids together?"
"I would offer you this one but I'm keeping it" did I really just do that? They both stare me with a weird look. Ron walks over to my right side and Looks at my stomach.
"Why wouldn't you tell me?" I get closer to him and whisper: "I meant to only tell you"
"So who's the father?" Chelsea asks with her phone in her hands.
"It's doesn't matter, can we just go get milkshakes or something?" I try changing the subject.
"No tell, is it Ron?" We both laugh. She just looks.
"No, I'm getting married. If I got a girl pregnant I wouldn't leave her" my eyes start to well up from flashbacks.
"I have to go, my moms coming to pick me up." Chelsea goes the opposite way and me and Ron just keep walking.
"I'm sorry" I say. I rub my eyes and we walk into a video game store.
"I would hold your hand but then it would look like we are dating, not that I wouldn't date you but I don't want people to think I'm cheating" he looks at the Xbox games.
"I get it. Anyone would date me" we both laugh.

12:04, Thursday.
I pull out my laptop and check social media. I see posts about me being pregnant, from people I know. I only told Ron, my mom, dad, and Chelsea...Chelsea.
I ignore it all and don't bother to message her. I know Ron would never do this, he's my best friend.

I feel a small kick. As I'm looking at my stomach and thinking of a name. my dad walks in.
"What do you want" I close my laptop and put on a sweater avoiding eye contact. He tries to talk me out of keeping the baby and never meant to let it get this far. I roll up my sleeves and show him the scars.
"You know what? I'm leaving! My whole life's been horrible with you!" I grab my bag out of my closet and put some clothes and my phone charger in the bag and walk downstairs to get my shoes on.
"Good thing moms at work, she won't stop me" I grin and walk out the door.

      I pull out my phone and text Ron as I'm crossing the street.
"Hey, are you busy?" I continue walking toward his house.
"I'm with justice right now, watching supernatural. Why??" I ignore the text and turn off my phone.

      I knock on the door. I see a light turn on.
"Hey, what are you doing here?" Justice says looking at me worriedly. I have black circles under my puffy eyes from crying. Ron walks to the door without a shirt on and no socks.
"Mad? What's wrong?" I start to sob. Ron pulls me into a hug. His muscular body pressed against my huge boobs and belly.
"C'mon inside" I sit on the couch and burry my face in my hands.
"I'm sorry" I say quietly. Ron sits on my right side and places his arm around me.
"Madeline, what happened?" I don't look up. I push my hair out of my face and wipe my eyes. I avoid making eye contact. Justice sits on a blue chair across from the couch.
"My dad, he's not your average dad. He was always giving me weird needles, and medicines and I would never know what they were for. Ever since two months ago my whole life has changed" pull my knees into my chest.

                   4:31am, Friday.
I wake up with my heart racing, and sweat covering my body. I sit up quickly and press my hand against my forehead. I get up off the couch and try to find the bathroom. I use my phones flash light to find my way through the dark hallway.
"To your left" i hear someone say quietly.

    I splash water on my face and wash my hands. I dry my face and hands and look in the mirror. I turn so that I can the side view of my body. I let my mind race with thoughts.
"What are you doing up so early?" Justice says. His hairs messy and his eyes are sleepy.
"I just had a nightmare" he hands me a blue sweater.
"Oh, thanks" I pull the sweater up and over my head, and put my arms through the sleeves.
"How long are you going to be here for?" He leans on the wall and crosses his arms. I put the toilet set lid down and sit on it.
"I'm not quit sure, I'll start look for a job and a place to live. Don't worry I'll try to make sure I'm out of here by next week" i lean my head on my fist and put my right arm around my stomach.
"Madeline, you can stay. I know Ron would want you to stay as long as you need. Do you need anything?" I look at him and stand up.
"I'm okay, I'm just going to try to some sleep." He nods and let's me walk out first then turns off the bathroom light.