Dawn.

Deeper

Justin looked at me in the eyes.

"You're so beautiful" he whispered, I gave a weak smile back, his hand was brushing my skin down to my waistband, My pulse started to increase and my heart started to race.

Justin smiled then leaned in, his lips placed a soft kiss then started to suck on my neck, his breath was so warm I felt it near my ear as he decided to whisper another thing.

"You don't feel comfortable, do ya?" He whispered, I didn't know how to reply but actually, yes I didn't feel comfortable, I know that he's Justin and I love him but I'm still not ready.

"You're not ready?" He asked whispering again and waiting for an answer, and again I didn't know how to reply as he spoke my mind again, I really wanna do it but I still cant, ugh I'm so stupid!

I felt the smile on his face getting wider, his lips kept on sucking as he played with the bra's straps.

"Silver, it's okay Hun ... I don't wanna do it if you don't feel comfortable" he whispered, why does he have to be so like ... like that? God I'm so confused, I don't know what to do and I don't know what to say.

"I ...I " I finally opened my mouth but still didn't say a useful thing, this whole situation makes me so weak, I felt disabled, I'm so shy about these things, I don't feel comfortable with no matter who I was with, it's so hard I feel like us so difficult, maybe because I feel embarrassed and I don't have experience.

He pulled back from his position, his knees either side of my body, he was holding my hand playing with my fingers while I'm laying deadly on the mattress just staring at the beauty on top of me, studying each feature in his angelic face.

I was thinking how a painful past, harsh father and a difficult life conditions created such an astounding, beautiful and dangerous human being.

"Spooning !" He said in a cheerful tone with a wide smile, snatching me out of my thoughts, he jumped off of me to stand on the floor then grabbed me to stand right in from of him.

"Huh?" I questioned, he did everything quickly, I just didn't realize what he did it said.

"You know ... two people lie close together sideways ... and front to back with bent knees so as to ... fit together ... as spoons."

Justin explained with hesitation and he was gesturing with his hands randomly, I felt like he's treating me as a retarded person, I knew what spooning means !! I just didn't get what he wanted from yelling the word.

The awkward silence lasted for a few seconds that seemed like forever, I felt the redness creeping on my face.

"Lets just keep you warm" Justin said smiling and winking at me, I smiled in response. Everything was so awkward, I felt so stupid, but I have my excuse, I mean I've never knew how to act in such a situation like the previous one, ugh oh god !!

"Lets start all over again?" He said to make me feel comfortable, yeah really I wish we can start it all over again, he placed his hand on my back and the other one on the back of my knees, weird. He carried me, well that's a good start, I laughed moving my face further into his chest, yeah he's the only person I've met that can change my mood within seconds, he laugh out loud while placing me on the mattress, me being shy was one of the things that always impressed him.

He slightly pushed me to the far side of the bed grabbing the cover that beneath me then he pulled me back closer to him, he kept doing this annoying things moving me like I'm a toy !! Once everything was in its position that fits the image he made in his imagination, he jumped on the bed next to me.