Dawn.

ATTENTION

This is not a chapter, but guys can we have a minute here?

My friend died. She committed a suicide at 5:00AM I was asleep, I woke and went out and I came back a couple of minutes ago then I knew. I hate myself because I wasn't awake when she sent me this.

"Hey Soha, I know you told me a couple of times to quit my suicidal thinking and I really was convinced until yesterday, I have family problems and my mom isn't pregnant anymore because of drinking. I thank god that my parents won't have any other kids but me because I don't want anyone else to suffer like me, I told you that my dad is a bully and both of my parents drink and do a lot of other bad things and I can't take it anymore, you told me once that god is always here beside me and he will never give up on me also that he created me for a reason, you told me that I may be suffering now but god will give me a better life soon, I don't think soon is soon enough for me, it's been 13 years and I really can't take it anymore. my parents suck my school suck all the people out there suck! It was really nice to have someone to talk to, you're very nice person you helped me a lot and I swear you changed ally of things in the month that we knew each other in, you were the first to tell me happy birth day the day before yesterday it was nice from you to stay up until 12:00 to do that, thanks you were the first and the last to tell me, my parents didn't remember, I didn't expect them to remember anyway.
You are the sister I've always asked for. life is difficult Soha, I hope you have a better one than mine. I wish I could live with you and your family but we're far away from each other. Thank your parents for making such a nice girl like you.
However, I'm sick of this life, I loved god because of you, I think I'm going back to him, he loves me as much as you do I know that. I love you Soha but that would be it, thanks for everything. Goodbye.
Love, Emilia."

Guys she died. A piece of me died with her. I knew her for a month and she was more like a sister. Emilia reached 13 two days ago. A thirteen years old girl wrote this, a thirteen years old girl had such a life and a thirteen years old girl committed a suicide yesterday.

If I was next to her I would call the police and tell them that her parents are the reason. They killed her, bullies at school killed her! Society killed her. She was an innocent girl and she's dead now.

We were friends only across twitter and she committed a suicide and just died. Because the stupidity of a fucked up society, I would happily say that I hate each one that hurt her before.

If there's a word I can say to Emilia it would be "I'm sorry for not being with you and I'm sorry for you being born in such community"

Guys there are over 3000 people commit suicide a day and today Emilia was one of them. I want to say to everyone that is reading this, you're good and strong enough to live. you worth every breath god gave for you, everyone around you may suck but they don't worth taking your life away. please be stronger and please fight for a longer time, eventually everything will be okay. everything will be better. And if you know anyone who suffers help them!! Sometimes they need only one person to tell them that they worth life. God is always here, he wants to hear your voice praying for him.

Emilia was a beautiful kid who needed someone to be beside her maybe my efforts wasn't enough and I'm sorry for that. If there's one thing that I'm sure about is that her parents didn't deserve her.

Guys be stronger. You're strong enough. You worth it!

Sorry for posting this here but this the only place where people will read, and guys I love you all please be safe. Spread the word.

Remember when I asked you if any of you were doing cuts? Emilia was the reason why I asked that. She was that friend that I told you was doing cuts.