Outcast

Chapter 38: Faithless

Pls listen to Evanescence’s Snow White Queen while reading this. I promise this is the last depressing chap for a while so don’t hate me too much. ‘Kay?

Sam’s POV

Alec… dead… because of me. My hands red, bloodstained. His head… no longer attached to his body. His eyes… cold and empty… lifeless. My body started throbbing with pain. I shouted his name, shouted how much I loved him and that I would soon join him.

Suddenly the fog dispersed and I was staring a very worried Bonnie and a very loud Danielle shouting for the others to get here. I had had another future vision. “I’m alright.” I muttered though the vision had broken any hope of me being anywhere near okay.

“Alight!? I’ve never seen anybody twist their limbs to a point of breaking them while having a vision. Sam, what did you see?” Danielle asked me. “Same as last time.” I said while scrubbing some mud off my face. ”Seriously, don’t worry. I’ll be alright.”

I tried to go to Volterra again, but I was ending up having the same vision. He knew I could teleport so he ordered me that I should only teleport in our boundaries. And even if I could, I did not have enough power in me. As much as I tried I never succeeded.

Life had become a total misery. I can never recall being this melancholic and afflicted since the breakdown in Finland after I left Alec. Gaius was a total bitch to us. He made us practice 24/7. He made us use our powers on each other until we're all a breath away from our final death. He made Logan use his powers on us everyday to make us get over our fears. My biggest fear… holding Alec’s dead body in my hands. Poor Logan would feel really guilty for what Gaius made him do to us. Gaius said he wanted to turn us into the ultimate killing machines and frankly, he succeeded. He made me train so hard that I have become able to have a vision while still being active for fighting on the battleground. 

The Cullens have been trying to save us for quite some months but he ordered us to destroy any vampire that crosses our boundaries so they had no way to get to us. I know for a fact as I had almost killed Daren on one of his crazy attempts to rescue me. Gaius and Jana were unstoppable. The way they were training us proved that they were professionals. I was sure that we could take down the Volturi easily.

I feared for Alec's life. Gaius hated Jane and Alec. Though I had managed to keep my relationship with Alec a secret from him as he'd most definitely try to use it to his advantage to get Alec on his side I could not get myself to rest about the fact that I would have to watch him suffer. 

He was working me beyond exhaustion. He believed that since I could not paralyse or block in any way my attacker's attack that I was the weakest. Though I could foresee the attack I was not a very good fighter. Since I could not teleport in demand, he made Logan scare me enough to a point that my body acted on its own and teleported me ten feet away. Not much but it still had me low on energy. I was sure that I could not endure this for long. I prayed every night that somehow Alec would come rescue me. I sounded like a true damsel in distress.

 I was getting along fine with the others, especially with Danielle and Bonnie. When Gaius and Jana were busy we would talk and plot ways of how we would kill them if we could. They understood me and my worry about what would happen if we had to attack the Volturi. 

"Sam, I believe you are supposed to be teleporting not wasting time." I heard Gaius' voice which made me shudder deeply. "Should I get Logan to get you to your senses?" he asked me. 

"I'm trying. I honestly am." I said, forcing myself to get in a present vision. I tried hard to get myself to teleport but I couldn't. I was slapped right across the cheek. 

"You lazy slob! You can't teleport because you're not trying hard enough. You're the worst of them all. You don't do anything. At least the others show progress. With you we're always at the beginning." he said. I was mad. Really mad. 

"I'm tired as hell of you. You work us like dogs and you expect us to look forward to do your bindings when you treat us like dirt. Hadn't you been a stupid dickhead you would have been decent to us thus increasing our collaboration. Just go get fucked and leave me alone." I shouted at him. He was surprised for a moment but soon a diabolical grin spread across his face. I gulped. That expression promised nothing but pain. "Sure. I will get fucked. Undress." he ordered me. My eyes got as round as saucers and my hands shot to hold tightly the dress around me. Though stained beyond use it covered all of me. 

"No, please, no. Not my body. Leave me alone. You can have anything else but not that." I pleaded with him. I have never felt like crying more than that moment. He was going to rape me. Mark me with his wretched scent. 

"But Sam, I'm just doing what you asked me to." he said as he came closer to me. I found that I couldn't move. He traced my jaw with the back of his hand. He leaned in and as much as I struggled I only moved by an inch. He put a disgusting kiss on my lips. When He pulled away I started shouting. "What about Jana, huh? What will she do when she finds out?" 

"Oh, what Jana thinks doesn't worry me. She's replaceable now that she helped me find the Five. It will be interesting to see how you'll react to living targets which you’re allowed to kill. I’m sure the animals you hunt are not that much of a threat.” He chuckled darkly in my ear. In all my existence I’ve never met such a cruel twisted person like Gaius. “Come on, undress.” He said to me. My hands shot to the back of the halter neck. I pulled as much strength and power as I could and stopped myself.