Randy Cunningham: 9th Grade Ninja X Reader: Legend (under construction)

Chapter 16: Kingdom Come

Randy's POV: 

When we left the fire, I was at war with myself. There, at the facility, I had been taught that the White Ninja was the cause of all the destruction that had happened to the city. "You have been lied to," the lady said. She was dressed in white and had a devilishly angelic way about her. 
She was kind but ruled by fear. "Monster!" The name rang in my ears as I remember repeating that name over and over again. The image of the White Ninja was slowly molded into that name. Esmerelda couldn't see past her beliefs that the White Ninja was the real savior, not the White Demon. The other Ninja led me to the outside clearing. At that moment, I had the picture of the White Ninja's silver eyes etched in my mind. They looked like Y/N's. Bits and pieces of my shattered memory was coming back, but some of them were just... unnatural. 
"How could you!?" The yellow Ninja yelled. Her eyes blazed anger and tears fled from her eyes as she stared at me. "She was helping you! She wasn't the monster, you were!" I blinked at her, not understanding. Y/N...? The blue Ninja gave her a freezing stare and turned her head back to me. I was scared. I wanted to be home. To be with Y/N. I didn't want any part of this anymore! "Where's... Where is Y/N?" I asked, looking down at the ground. Everyone froze were they stood. There was a long silence between everyone, and every so often, a few terrified glances. I stared at the Blue Ninja. I could feel the tears pushing their way to the outside of my eyelids. My breathing started to amp up when Blue took in a shaky breathe. She looked at her feet for a  moment, then looked up with sadness, betrayal, and hurt flying through her eyes. 
"Randy. The White Ninja that you had claimed to be a monster in that burning facility...," her voice trailed off a little bit as she knelt down beside me, placing a gentle and steady hand on my shoulder. "It was Y/N." My eyes widened, and the terror hit me like a bullet to the brain. No... No, it can't be! I thought desperately. "No way... you're-you're lying! That wasn't her! Was it..?" I asked, trying to stand up. My world was shaking and falling apart. My hands trembled and the skin behind my ears tightened with fear. My eyes were pouring down tears and my heart pounded with hurt and fear inside my rib cage. "I'm so sorry." 
I turned my head to Blue and saw that she too had the same feelings in her heart as me. I screamed out my pain and let the tears fall with my screams. "It can't be true! It just can't!" I yelled, falling to my knees and holding my hands to my chest, I curled up in a ball and screamed and yelled out for Y/N. But I already knew I had lost her...

(A Few Days Later)

I was cold. I was stupid. I was the monster everyone knew and saw. Howard had tried to cheer me up, but I've just been so low lately. Ever since Y/N was proclaimed dead, I couldn't have lived with myself. I lay there in my bed, the gray and white clouds passing by the faint sun that shone outside. My face was stiff with the remains of the dried up tears I had cried all of last night and the night before that. I wanted her back. I needed her back. 
"I'm sorry...," she had once said. "It just hurts me to see you this way. You know I really love you. More than you could ever know." Her beautiful eyes. Her soft hair. I didn't want to look back at the image of her, but I did. My mind forced me to. Her nice smile. Her lovely voice. As I stared at her with closed eyes, I placed my palms on my eyes and sobbed quietly. There wasn't anything that could make me feel better. Nothing. 
"Just wait. You're going to need to wait until you get stronger." 
"I'm your protector. I'm not letting you go into a fight without me there. And you are not meeting them without me either."
"I...I thought you were dead, or some thing. You weren't breathing, you were just lying there."
I swallowed hard, my throat burning from the tears that covered the scar of my rope burn. I sighed and rolled over on my side. I missed her so much. And now that she was gone... I was the one who killed her. I was the murderer. I felt like I should be punished. But wasn't this my punishment already? I don't know. I didn't know anything. I stared at my hand, imagining Y/N's hand in my own. I wanted that. I wanted that so much more. 
Every memory of me and her flashed, sparked, burned, then vanished into ashes in my mind. And every one of them tore my heart apart even more. Stars Awakening. The little moments we had. The journal. The Pines family. It was all over. She was gone. And I had let her go. I had killed her myself, but unintentionally. No, it was intentional. But did I know it was her? No. I never did... And now I had to pay for it.