my life as well as theirs (poems)

my life begins now

When I was

Born my

Family didn't

Care about me

As I grew up

They still didn't

Care they just

Made my life

Harder

They always

Made me

Wish I was dead

But I never

Wanted to

Kill myself

I don't think

Killing myself

Would be the

Solution

My solution

Was to put

Up a mask

This mask

Was to hide

The real me

And to make

Sure that

NO ONE

Would

EVER hurt me

AGAIN

And it worked

Until I turn about

14. The causes were

Puberty

Family

Friends

Moving to a new place

All had the

Same effect

On me

Again I

Just wanted

To die becuase

The world seem

To be against me

But I dealt

With it by

Putting the

Mask on

tighter so

to say

I did that

For about

Year

I am 15 now

And I am happier

I am not suffering

As much

I am actually

Smiling more

Luaghing more

And even being

Nicer

In my eyes

My life was

Actually becoming

Better I stopped

Think about

Dying

I still think

I am crap

That I am

Loveless

Ugly

Fat

Worthless

And a whole

Bunch of

Other things

That I have

Been called

Almost all my

Life

But I am

Changing

My self esteem

Is getting

slightly better

And my mask

Is slowly coming

Of and people

Seem to like

The real me

Better than

The fake me

So I think

The real me

Is showing so

The last 15

Years of my life

Were nothing

And my life

Is actually begining

Now instead of

When I was

Actaully born