my life as well as theirs (poems)

my feeling for you

when I look

at myself

I see everything

that is wrong

with myself

when you

look at

me you

see everthing

that is good

about me

when you

tell me

nice things

about myself

my heart aches

and I dont know

why

when I say that

you are lying to me

about myself

you forwn at me

and say

"you are

all of those thing

dont let anyone

tell you otherwise

and if they do tell me

and I will kick their

sorry fucking ass"

my heart aches

some more. but I still

dont know why

I ask why

and you say

isnt it obvious.

I give you a werid

expression

and you say I guess

you sigh

and say

all you have to do

is look me in the

eyes and tell me

what you see

I cant look you

in the eyes

I am afraid of

what I will see

I am afriad that

I will see

the fimilar glow

of hate in you eyes

i know it would just

hurt more

if you hated

me. when I think

about it

my heart just

hurts some more

and I still have

no clue why

you are making me

feel this way

is it that I love you

that i have fallen so

deeply inlove with you

well I think about all the

thing that you have done

for me I realized that

I love you

I am still unable

to look you in the

eyes

you grab me face and

make me look at you

I see a very different

feeling than hate

it is a feeling that I

have never seen before

by then you are leaning

closer to me

and saying

have you figured out

the obvious yet.

with that you stop moving

closer

and you start to move away

but I dont let you

I want to try something

I kiss you with such

hardly anything

but i feel sparks

after being in shock for

about a second

you start kissing me

back and say

I think you

fingured out

the obvious

now havent

you Aimee

yeah I think

I have I

say with

a smile

then you say

something I

dont fully expect

I love you

words that I have

never heard before

so I cry and

say I love you too

and my feelins

for you will never

change

you kiss me again

and the world disappers and

and I feel are the sparks

and happiness

in the world

just form my feeling for you