my life as well as theirs (poems)

these feelings

Anger

sadness

loneliness

these are

feelings that

have built

up inside

of me for

about 15 years

they only seem

to get worse

as each and every

day that passes

by

but they

also have

they only get better

when I

write

read

and listen to

music

happiness

love

acceptace

these are

feelings that I

havent felt

up until now

I started

feeling them

after talking to

my two friends

but I still cant seem

to fight off these feeling

until there is

nothing left

so which of

theese feelings

should I actually be

feeling?

should I be happy

all the time?

should I be sad

all the time?