my life as well as theirs (poems)

15 years later

death something

that is so close

but so far away

when I was

little I have

tried killing my

self but I lived

though each

and every

attempt

now 15 year

later all I

can think

about is

when will

death

finally

come for

no matter

how many times

in my life I have

tried

to kill my self

I have lived through

them all

none of them

did work

so I am just

trying to kill

myself and live

in my personal

hell

I am tired

of being suicidal

and going to therapy

so I am going to

try and get better