Faking It

18.

I was utterly and completely distracted.

My mind has been elsewhere over the last few months and I needed to focus on my studies.

Not that my grades have been affected greatly but, the need to prioritise my studies right now over everything was a must. Especially seeing as our major exams will be starting soon.

Not to mention that I also had to study and help satan in disguise with his grades also, apart of the deal.

And I always hold my end of the bargain.

So, here I was.

In the dusty, quiet campus library at midnight as my mind decided that it was time to study, not sleep like every normal person in the damn university.

My eyes flickered around the dimly lit library and I could not help but feel a small shiver run down my spine as  the large, empty room was too uncomfortably quiet.

It didn't help that there were multiple stories about this place being haunted.

Maybe I'll get possessed and won't have to take my final exams?

Focus April, Focus.

Flicking through my study notes, I try to stay focused on the assignment but the questioning thoughts overcloud my judgement.

With a yelp, I essentially jump out of my seat. Cursing under my breath, I grab my phone that has signalled a message.

Remind me to turn my phone off later so I don't scare myself into another century again.

Where are you? I am home and I brought dessert!
Sent at 12:18am

Running my hand along my face in exhaustion, I let out a long sigh before I began typing back to Vi.

Just leaving the library now. 

Deciding that I was clearly not going to get in any more study in tonight, I close all of my books and place them in my folder, standing up from the small desk in the back of the library, even though I was alone, I still had the strong urge to be extra quiet.

Making my way down the library stairs, the cold, midnight breeze blows through me and I shiver, goosebumps tracing my skin as I quicken my pace to warmth.

Strolling passed the boys apartment complex as I make my way home, my mind clouds with thoughts of Noah.

This hasn't been a rare occurrence lately. Unfortunately for me, Noah seemed to preoccupy my thoughts quite a lot these days.

I mean, there's nothing to it, right?

It's been a couple of months since we started this whole deal of ours so, it's only evident we grow closer right?

As friends.

Nothing more.

Maybe something less, but—

There's nothing more to it.

It's all just, fake.

God, why do I care that it's all fake?!

My thoughts were sidetracked as I looked to the ground, a shadow figure appeared behind me and my anxiety started to boil inside my veins, sending my heart thumping wildly in my chest and my pace had quickened as I basically raced to my apartment.

As paranoid as it sounded, getting anxious around a strange figure on campus at midnight whilst walking back to your room is completely normal.

My mind was telling me not to turn back but of course, nosy me, I turned my head quickly to see if I had been wrong and there had been nothing to worry about, and of course I had been right.