Jay's Dilemmas

'Depressing things' thing time CX what? XD

Waittttt...we need music!
My milkshake brings all the boys to the something..dam right, its better than yours XD KIDDINGGG THAT'S NOT THE SONG XD

Hereeee❤ is a heart ←

Jk XD Here.

Alright so this chapter/update/blog/shit or whatever you wanna call it...will be a teeny weeny bit different from all the other shix CX we're talking blood, cuts, tears and all the other body fluids...including urine..
(Not really.XD)

And yesss...this is a true story..its not a lie..I promise..its not ❤

Firstly...people think I barely ever get depressed. Shut your yapping big mouth! I do get depressed..but I never tell anyone. A lot of things hurt me, but I just don't tell anyone about it cuz I don't want my life to break down. If you know what I'm saying  ┐(ﾟдﾟ┐)

So let's begin

The story of my life! I take her home. I'd drive all night until she's broke inside...its froooozen. The story of my liiiiiiife. ( I messed up big time didn't I? XD)

Okayy let's actually start CX

The story that Jay hid from everyone

My life has always been an up-down-down-uppppppppppppppppppppp higher than a mother fu------ CX omg...I'm too hyper today XD
And sometimes...the downs can be pretty rough..

Back in the 7th grade.. (Yeah!! Last year!) I used to have a crush on a guy...it was for 8 months..yep. 8 months of thinking that he looks hot but He's not. .-.
I've never really cared about looks anyway..soooo.

I liked him a lot! Idk why..but I just did..but then there was this day.. When he got a girlfriend and she was one of the most prettiest BUT bitchiest people in our school. No offense. I was friends with her...at the time... I still am? Idek. Its so hard to tell XD. Yeah, so he had her as his girlfriend and I literally cracked. Into . a million pieces. inside. I cried the entire day, up until I got home... I couldn't control myself. I honestly couldn't. I cried a lot, I wanted to stop, but I couldn't. So I went to the bathroom, pulled out my mom's leg shaver..
( WHAT? You expect me to use a stick?) I pulled up my sleeves and cut in the same place rapidly... And yeah, I was aware that I might cut a vein...but at that time...I didn't even care. .-.

I stopped after what felt like eternity and stared at my wrist, first thing that popped to my head- MOM AND DAD IS GONNA KILL ME!- so I went to my room, grabbed a sharpie, tissue , cotton squares, skin tape thingy and I just wiped my wrist , put the cotton on, attach it with tape and then draw a smiley face with the sharpie...I swear I did that XD

I started to cry harder... Not for him, but for what I just did..I felt like stabbing myself but then I was just like...not enough cotton. -..-

And after that experience.. I learned a lot! I realized that...we're not cutting because we want attention, we do it because we wanna feel a pain stronger than the one we are feeling...(did I just say some wise shit right there? I did! Omg XD)

But I also realized that we shouldn't be doing it...cuz we could also feel happiness that's stronger than the pain..❤ there's another way to go bruh. But people don't realize that...they just don't.

Call your friends, go swimming, draw, paint, write a poem, play flappy bird on you iPad ( the screen is wider, which makes it easier for me...idk why and I have a higher score on there than on my phone .-. 78!! Mwahaha
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Do something that will cheer you up! Pick happiness over crying and hiding those stupid scars!
❤❤❤ trust me on this...
If you're feeling depressed...then trust me ❤❤ I know how you feel
And if you ever say I don't..

IMA SMACK YOUR EFFING FACE OFF! IM SERIOUS!

So yeah...I hope you guys enjoyed this thing (OMG AUTO CORRECT! THANK YOU! IT JUST SAVED MY LIFE! I wrote thong and then it corrected it to thing)

If you did enjoy it, vote, comment and say something...IM GIVING UP
YOU..anywhere..I ...would have followed you *smirkity smirk smirk smurffff* XD

Anyway, thanks for reading ❤❤❤ pm meeeee XD

~Jay ❤