Cutting is a problem and a solution (kellin quinn)

"Smart bitch!"Someone yelled as I walked down hell people call school.

Every person in the school hates me except that one girl that grew up with me and understands me she is my cousin and all we have is each other.

I walk down the hall ways each and every day being called a bitch and slut and other things that really aren't compliments

"Need a dildo?"Brent said

Brent was my bully along with some girls and his 'crue'

I thought that he would just call me one thing and that's it so I kept walking but he soon stopped me and began to have some girls jump me.

My life story isn't great I have a horrible father who does drugs and who 'touches' me and then my mother who is never home and is always with some 'friends'.

I was pulled up by my upper arms which really hurt as he spoke into my face .

"Why do you try? Just kill yourself!"he spoke

"Answer me!"

"Because I'm only living for one girl and she is the only one that understands me you dick!"I yelled

And with that I was punched by him 'a boy are you serious!'I thought

I lay there until Alyssa came and rescued me.

"Oh my gosh Jasmin! Are you okay?"She yelled as she helped me up.

"Yes just Brent punched me"I answered

We then went into the bathroom and she helped clean me up as we explained every one that had hurt us that day we plan to revenge then before the end of 10th grade.

"Here take this it is the 2nd thing that keeps me alive I have recorded all of sleeping with sirens"she said as she handed me an iPod (tiny cube one)

"But then what will you listen to"

"I have another I just took it from Jenna"she said

"Wow good one better hope she don't find out"I said as we hugged

*later in the day*

'Just open up like a page in a book these words that I'm writing won't be misunderstood!'I sang along

Right after the song ended I was getting yelled at

"WHAT THE FUCK I WAS YELLING FOR YOU!THIS IS WHY WE DON'T GET YOU SHIT!"He yelled before he slapped with all him might

Yup this is my life!

I then ran into the bathroom and began to put the blade to my wrist an let the blood leak as I listened to the rest of the album.

I never want to get used to the pain because if I do my attention will be at the world and I want all my attention on the pain.

I soon fell asleep on the floor only to hope my eyes never open again.

"GET THE FUCK DOWN HERE!"

I put a sweatshirt on and ran down stairs and was met with about 3 men and 1 women in the room

"Put this on"he said as he threw a lace see through dress on after I got into the car as an order

"Where am I going?"

"To your buyers house your going to make some money and he will be giving you 2,000 and I better get it!"he answered

"Wait I'm a ...h-hooker?"I said

"Worse than that"he smirked

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A/N : What?! But to all my sws fans keep going and be strong and if u cut don't do to much cuz it will effect you! But the song in the book is BOMB DOT COM :) it's my fav song