It had been a few weeks since that magical night and when we got home I purged but time which I'm proud of myself for :)
I know I shouldn't be smiling and I shouldn't be doing this stuff but still once you stop eating it just becomes a habit
I was now packing my bag, I ate a few days ago and it made me gain a pound ! What ? All I had was half a salad? This is why I don't eat because of how my diet goes out of bounce
"Hey babe almost done" Kellin said coming up from behind me and wrapping his arms around me
"Nothing just packing ya know thinking well I was butt ya had to interrupt me"
He laughed "and why were these thoughts so important?"
"How I'm going to do this, how am I sposed to be away from my loved ones for more than spring season." I said worried
"Baby we can still contact each other everyday " He said
"Not good enough."I said
He laughed and helped me finish packing, I wasn't in the happiest mood, it pisses me off how I have tone sent to this hell hole because of my diet I'm still alive so I think that's good enough
Probably not nobody wants me here except Kellin and my mom oh go I'm going to miss them so much. At least I wot have no worries, no bills , no babysitting ... COPELAND I'm going to miss her most of all ! My baby girl we love each other so much not I have to go away I hope she dosent freak out I much
She can be a crybaby
"What are you going to do while I'm gone?Probably find something better"I said
"What do you mean ? " Kellin said
"Your Kellin Quinn babe , everyone wants you I mean what if a better offer comes because there will be " I said way to worried
Yup now I do have something to worry about while I'm in there.
"Babe! Your the best thing that's ever happened to me since Katelynn , nothing is better anymore than you, you and copeland are the most important women in the world "
I simply kissed him
"So what are you going to do while I'm gone " I asked
"Idk work on songs with the band, do some things with copeland , hang with my family , go to Katelynn's grave " He said
"Good I'm happy you won't be laying on the couch snorting potato chips" I said causing us to laugh
Kellin P.O.V
She was so beautiful she was perfect actually I felt like the luckiest man in the world to have her.
I helped her pack all her things including her clothes, her diary which she never used but needed , shoes , makeup and then I saw a tiny razor at bottom just shining away as if it didn't want to go , it wasn't going with her
At the moment she was in the bathroom , probably weighing herself, I need to make sure she isn't cutting herself. She dosent wear clothes when she weighs herself. It adds weight
I didn't even knock I just walked straight in and yup there she was, weighing herself it sickened me at how our society can cause a girl this much pain
I quickly grabbed her off the scale and as I did I looked ... 89 pounds
"Jasmin . Why " I said
She was cutting herself, had about 7 up her leg
"Why not " She said broken
"Because people love you" I said sternly
I started to put her shirt on as a tear ran down my face , she saw the tear causing her to get up , apologize and walk away with her clothes
I sat there for a minute looking at that idiot scale. Why can't she be happy? She is perfect. Just way to skinny
I took the razor I my hand and through it in the toilet and flushed it
"Let go " She said as I walked into our bedroom
We were going to the rehab center which was in Illinois , luckily we're live in Missoui so no problems there
We wanted more time together so we decided to go by car.
"Baby I'm sorry I've been putting you through all this " Jasmin said as we started toward the highway
"Through what?" I asked
"This drama and bs " She said
"It isn't drama and you need help, your getting it " I said putting my hand on her leg
"I love you" I added
"I know , thank you for it and I love you to " She said
The drive there was full of love , laughing and a little bit of sleep
As she slept I looked at her peacefully sleeping , her belly was sunken down to nothing as she laid on her back
I really hope this all turns out ok, she deserves love
We arrived at the mall that I was going to surprise her with
"What are we doing here?" She asked as she woke up from her nap
"We're going shopping" I said
We walked into the mall and I bought her, new clothes, work out stuff , and thugs for her hair
She needed it and deserved it she has been through to much and everytime I would buy her something she would thank me and say it was un-nessesary
We finally got to the rehab center and she began to cry as she thought of being alone in that awful place
"Kellin I'm going to miss you way to much. Please call me everyday and tell copeland I said I love her . " She said to me with tears in her eyes
"I will babe I'm going to miss you way to much I don't think it's healthy how much we love each other " I said making us laugh
I hugged her one last time before she was one for months
She was so skinny, way to skinny I could feel every bone in her body. It was going to be different next time, I know it.
We kissed again and she added tongue. Yup she didn't wanna go
"Bye baby " I said
"Bye babe "She said then she was gone inside that building.
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Srry I haven't been updating ! I really am I will honestly try to update more. 🙏 I'm loving this book 👌 I can't wait to update for rehab!
I changed point of veiws for the first time 🙈 Kellin is so fucking cute I could rape him. I kno where he lives .... 😏 ...:...Gonna go read some books😎
Bye 👋
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