Cutting is a problem and a solution (kellin quinn)

Forget and forgive?

"Justin does he understand it's not my fault Vic kissed me !" I said with tears filling my eyes

"He just needs to be alone for a bit trust me he'll understand he loves you."Justin said

Just then Jesse and Gabe walked in confused

Immediately Jesse started questioning me

"What happened are you okay"he said

"Did Kellin do something wrong ?"Gabe added

"No it's just I can't do anything right Me and Vic kis-kissed " I choked out

"How do he take it"Gabe responded

"He ran out without a word "I said

* 4 hours later*

I looked up from my pillow filled with tears as I heard the bus door slam open and Kellin sturred in

"Kellin?" I said as I walked into the mini kitchen

"What the fuck do you want? " He slurred

Yep he was drunk.

"Babe your drunk " I said

"Don't call me babe! whore"

I stood there in shock is he seriously that drunk or is that just what runs through his head

"Kellin.."I managed to choke out

"I take pity on you, realize that right?"He said in a poor shot at sounding American

"Why are you being like this"I said sternly

"I don't know why do you think all the magazines have to have you on the cover 'Miss Anerexia ' " He said and landed on the couch with a bottle of whiskey in his hand

I quickly attempted to snatch the bottle out of his hand but failed with a push against the counter

"I've had it" I said and went to our bunks

I walked over to Jesse's bunk getting ready to wake him up but I stopped as I realized he was wide awake

"Jesse " I managed to break in before collasping onto the floor next to the bunk to make sure I wouldn't wake the other boys

"Jaz are you okay?"He said

"Can we take a walk" I asked

"It's like 2 in the morning- " he said before realizing my facial image and added on with a

"Fine lets go"

* 5 minutes later *

"Lets go" he said and grabbed my hand trying to sneak out and not wake up Kellin

"Jesse I don't know what to do I mean Vic kissed me and while we were there a pap took a shot so now I'm going to be anorexic and a slut to the world it's like once I take a step forward it's two steps back"I said the first second we were out of Kellins sight

"Jaz nothing is ever goin to be okay I mean it's simply life and we can't change that but things do go up and down so just know that things will get better and all we need to do is make sure we're playing it safe and being careful life is precious"He said

"I know but Kellin dosent see it that way he dosent care about anyone but himself and how he wants his wife back it's probably my fault he is so sad all the turn I wish Kate was still here she could fix this"I said with a tear slipping down my eye

*saturday*

Today is the first of December meaning Christmas is coming meaning after the 8th tour is over and right now me and Kellin aren't on speaking terms

Time to meet my mother and find some lectures and how much it's dangerous but I do miss her.

Kellin feels awful for the bruise on my hip from the push last week but not awful enough to talk to me

Life is so complicated

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Sorry so short but yea here's something. 😔😴