Cutting is a problem and a solution (kellin quinn)

Chapter 4 mistake

"Dad I'm leaving with alyssa!'I yelled from the front door

"Take some house keys!"he yelled back he has been being nice for the past week since he found my cutting

I was walking to my room when I saw my moms old eyeliner sharpener I quickly grabbed a screw driver and untightened it an grabbed the blade

"Haha mad bro?"I snicker to myself at my witty comment

"I will need this"I added and put it in the tot bag

"So whatcha wanna do tonight?"kellin said as I jumped in the car with my tot bag

"Uhh I don't know "I said

"Wanna go drinking?"he said as we drove away from the road

"Sure "I said with a smirk

I know what your thinking why is Kellin Quinn still hanging out with a complete loser

Well here is the answer ..I don't know but I feel like I'm going to be played

Before I could think I spoke up

"Why do you hang out with such a lame ass like me?"I said and regretted it immediately

Kellin P.O.V

"Why do you hang out with such a lame ass like me?"is all I heard before I was thinking about the reason

That night when I found he cutting herself was like getting shot and her beauty was unbelievable she is so funny and I just want to be there for her I'm not in love with her because my only one true love is Katelynn poor adorable ...dead Katelynn

"Just because your cool"I said yea way to higher her ego dush now she thinks I don't like her oh well as long as she is safe

*at the club *

Jasmin P.O.V

Me and kellin were sooo drunk considering I was only 20 -got held back in school-and kellin was 26 he had to show his id and we passed

"Kellin I think I loooooovvve you honey boo boo child"I said with some slurs yup I was so drunk

"Right back at you billy bob!"he screamed over the music

"I love this suuuunng"he said

"Me to"I answered

We were now grinding on each other with the music and then we slowly leaned toward each other as our lips touched and sparks flew we then made out and we were finally going home

*next morning *

Ow dawn worst hang over ever.

"Um kellin?"I asked to see if he was in the room and there he was next to me I then quickly checked to see if we were naked

Oh thank god !

I looked up to find him staring at me with a smile

"No we did not have sex but..."he said

"What "then it flew back to my mind

The kiss and the sparks

"I totally forgot and so umm did that mean anything ?"I added

Kellin P.O.V (tiny)

Yes it did I felt sparks an I'm surprised I even remembered it hell I was so drunk so this kiss just have meant something !

"Uhh well not really "I said Lie. It did mean a lot but if I said yes then this would have token off and I think I'm just not ready for another love

"Oh well same haha"she said

Jasmin P.O.V

Lie god did I feel sparks but well he didn't so why try we could be just close friend ya know?i didn't see him liking me anyway

The subject is gone now .we were drunk.i felt something.he didn't . It's a done deal

That day we were laying in bed just talking and watched some movies Copeland was coming home from her grandmas in a bit so we just waited

"Jasmin can I ask you something ?"he said

"Sure what's up?"I said

"Well we have been hanging out for a while and what are we like best friends or what?"he said

"You already made the decision that kiss meant nothing so I guess it wasn't meant to be so we can be best friends "I said

"Okay..."he said with an emotionless face

All of a sudden he was demanding to see my wrists

"Why?!"I yelled as he yelled back with a

"What do you think"he said before he grabbed them to find nothing

Little did he know I had did it on my hips so no one could find them

"Good I was wondering to make sure you kept your promise"he said as he cuddled back into me

'Ew now look what you did you just broke a promise to the man you love an who doesn't love you back figgers' I thought

*flashback*

I had just found the blade and was sooo feeling the urge to cut after weeks of not doing it so I sneaked to the back yard and hid in the shed and started to cut I ended up with 6 new cuts and I quickly stopped the bleeding and got into kellins car

End of flashback*

'Haha smart'

I think and think I love kellin but he doesn't love me back.