Cutting is a problem and a solution (kellin quinn)

Im getting used to this.

I woke in a very familiar room,the hospital. Hate this place

I was alone in the room except a nurse who was checking on my info on my blood and stuff like that

"Oh good your awake"She said

She was really pretty and of course skinny,She was wearing a Micky mouse nurse suit with her hair half up half down which was brown with her brown eyes and light brown skin , Thigh gap and all

"Are you feeling okay?"She asked

"Never better"I said sarcastic

She giggled

"Ya know what your doing is really dangerous " She said looking down at my wrist as I followed her eyes and found my arm wrapped in a bandage

"Was it deep?"I questioned

"Cut a whole vein"She said

I stayed quiet

"I have a daughter she knows exactly what your going through "I said

I looked up at her with sad eyes

"I give her everything I can but she still dosent get that I can't buy her everything and then her boyf-nevermind"She said and started to walk away

"Wait please! please tell me"I said

She stopped and looked back

"Please"I repeated

"Her boyfriend abuses her I - "She paused for a second

"I try to stop it but she dosent want me to and she loves him but I don't see why he hits her as if she is worthless ... she isn't"She said as a tear ran down her cheek

" Maybe it's not about what she wants, maybe it's about what is good for her " I said

"Your right I should just stand up"He said

"I hope you do"I said just then the doctor stepped in

The Nurse stepped out as the doctor began

"This is your second time in here,for the same reason"He said looking at his board sheet thingy

"And I see your not eating, heart waits racing constantly and your stomach is crying for food..why?"He asked

"That's not what you need to know"I said as polite as possible

"I understand. Would you be interested in a Rehab center "He asked

"I'm not on drugs"I said shocked

He let out a small laugh and continued

"No no they make rehabs for anything that needs help with"He explained

Rehab?Really? let me guess food is gonna get shoved down my neck as they stitch up my scars

"No thanks"

"Please it's the best trust me it's the top line in the state an for what's it worth we can pay"He said with hope in his eyes

Maybe it's good for me I'm getting sick if my belly snapping at me

"Fine but where is it?"

"Missouri, Grand Rapids " He said

"Okay when do I start?"I agreed

"In a few months you will start we have to wait for next semester to start" He said

"Have I had any visitors?" I asked

"Actually yes there is 2 outside "He said and called them in

In walked Vic and Kellin

The doctor didn't hesitate to leave the room

"Jasmin" Kellin said

He then ran over and hugged me as tight as possible

"I'm so sorry I'm sorry, so so sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry"He repeated over and over

"Kellin stop!"I said

He got off me with a shock look on his face

"Kellin I need time" I said

Vic then stepped up and hugged me slightly

"I'm sorry I ruined everything "

"Don't be you didnt" I whispered

We unhooked ourselves from each other and they stood there as they listened

"I'm going to rehab "I admitted

"When"They said

"Few months " I replied

"I'm glad your okay " Kellin said

"Thanks.."I said

* few days later *

It's December 19th and me and Kellin are getting ready together , we're not exactly on loving point but were talking he has apologized at least a million times I said it's fine but he dosent believe me I mean he shouldn't because it's not fine

"Hey babe ya almost ready?" Kellin said from outside the bathroom

I kept quiet and of course he got scared and walked right in as I stared at myself in the lovely Golden dress with diamonds on the edging of my bra line that met in the middle and came into one with curve.It was long with a tiny bit of extra length that flowed in the back.I had red and green earrings with Gold heals.I added a golden scarf with a Christmas tree on the corner f it to hide my scar

My hair was curly with a waterfall braid added with a Christmas pin holding it to the side

"You look stunning " He said

"Thanks" I said with a smile

"So do you" I added

He was wearing a black suit with a Candy cane tie

We were heading to a Christmas Ball set up by Rise Records, we were fresh to death

"What about your um..."He said looking at my wrist

"My what?"I said wanting him to say it

"Your cuts"He said with a sigh

"I have a scarf" I said

"Are you sure were not over dressed"I asked

"Imagine it as a prom"He said

And with that we were off to be judged and looked at

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My parents told me where Kellin lives 👍👍👍👍 Michigan, Grand Rapids!!! and I pic of his house off of instagram alreAdy planning my steal ! but anyways hope you like it but I'm going to try so hard to update on Christmas ! it's a challenge but birthday in 3 days!