Me and Kellin laid in be for about 5-6 hours of half sleep some crying a little conversation.
"Kellin phones for you" Justin said walking in
Kellin then told me he would be back and left the room
"So.. How long has this been happening ?" He said
I stayed quiet for a moment
"Since before me and Kellin met."I said honestly
He sighed deep and looked at me in a sad face before hugging me
"I love you and you know that so please don't hurt yourself"he said
All that reminded me of is the fresh cuts from a week ago well this is te best time to tell someone
I quietly slipped out of his grip as he watching me with shocked eyes and a tear slip as I showed him the cuts
"Jaz ..." He said as we hugged me tighter
"Why"he added
"Don tell Kellin please ... He is already on the verge of giving up on me..."I said
"NO he not and neither is any of the rest of the band members"he said
Just then Kellin walked in and said
"We have a interview on saturday"
"I'm going I get some air"I said as I started to put on my boots and jacket
Kellin then grabbed my arm and I winced
"Be careful " he said in a confused tone toward my arm
I then walked out I the bus but made sure no tourists or photographers were out and continued walking
'God why did I even tell Kellin there wouldn't have been no good out of it..now everyone thinks I'm disgusting or fat or take pity on me' just then my phone started ringing
"Hello"i said
"Honey"it's my mom
"No mom I know your going to say 'why sweetie ' and tell me how dangerous it is in that part" I said
"No sweetie I just want to tell you that I went through the same thing and it wasn't fun but you don't need to be skinny for anyone and it dosent matter if it's dangerous if your in that star but to other people it does matter and me and you need to meet up on Saturday I love you sweetie " she said
"Oh mom I'm sorry and I'll try to do better but I'm going to go now I'm relaxing and yes we can meet up love you" I said with a year down my cheek
"Ok sweetie be careful I love you bye "she said
"Bye love you"i said and hung up
Wow my mom knows how I feel she was ana to unbelievable I wonder how she got over it god I'm so stupid why would I do this to myself -
No you did it to yourself because your fat now please keep my alive and starve yourself -
God ana your ruining my life how could you be so in consider-
"Um hey" a voice said behind me
I turned around to see chocalate eyes and brown hair vic.
"Oh um hey" I said awkwardly
"Are you okay" he said considerately
"Yea I'm fine " he then looked at me knowing that I was lying
"I hope that magazine isn't true "he said hopefully
"It is I mean the whole world knows it but yet nobody cares that one fucking direction has flaws to or Justin Beiber has been smoking or how miley cyrus fucked 5 different guys through a week god I hate social life's "
He giggled at my our rage causing me to glare at him
"Im sorry it's just ur cute when your mad"he immediately stopped laughing as my eyes went big and shocked
"Not like that I mean your not not like that I mean your not ugly or ur not not perfect well your -UGH"
I laughed for a moment before saying ' I know '
"Mind if I walk with you"
"No it's okay"
We then started walking toward the stage where the main bands play
We walked up onto it and started talking about my starving and how it's bad and shit
"Jasmin your an amazing girl and you deserve better than some fucking jackass paps up on you "he said with honesty in his eye
"I may not think I skinny or beautiful or anything but I do know that not one person should be going through this " I said truthfully
"I think they can be real bitches sometimes " He said
"Ya think?"
Then a text shock trough my phone making me jump
It's Kellin.
K- hey where are u I miss u
J- Main stage with vic be back soon 😘
K- be careful and make sure he keeps u safe luv ya ❤️
J-ok bye
K- bye xx
" God I'm so lucky to have him " I said
"Yea and he is lucky to have you " Vic said
"Thanks so ya wanna head back to the buses ?"i said
"Sure "
He said we then stood up and before I knew it Vic's lips were on mine and I was takin back and did not give in and pushed him away but before I could we heard a snapshot from behind us
"VIC!" I said
"WHT THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO THAT?"
"I'm sorry I couldn't help it your just so damn beautiful "he said sorry
"Dosent mean you can kiss me you fucking jerk!" I said and stomped/ran away
As soon as I was on the bus I ran to Justin considering he is the only one who knows my secrets
"Justin help me "I said as we went to the back of the bus
I completely shut down and balled my eyes out
"Babe what happened?!"he said trying to give me comfort
"Vic he - he - kissed me and now Kell-Kellin is going to du-du-dump me "I said threw crys
"Oh my god I'm going to pound him " he said pissed
"No don't please! there's no po-point !"I said
"Can I tell Kellin ?" He asked
"No no no plea-please don't "I said
"I'm going to have to " I added
Just then Kellin walked in hearing my crys
"What happened ?!"he said running to my comfort
"Kellin vic and I kis-kissed " I studded out
He then let go of me and left the room I followed him but he didn't answer and kept walking untill he left the bus and justin held me back
"WHERE IS HE GOING JUSTIN STOP!" I yelled
"Shhhhhh" Justin said craddleing me in a ball
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Cutting is a problem and a solution (kellin quinn)
FanfictionJasmin has no one in her life to depend on as she faces Anerexia and Selfharm. She struggles with her father, with no mother until everything gets turned upside down. Maybe she has her father to thank.Kellin finds her alone and invites her into his...
