Cutting is a problem and a solution (kellin quinn)

Love

"Kellin where are we going ?" I asked as we drove opposite from our way home

It was about 1 in the morning and we had just left the party ,I hadn't gotten drunk due to the fact that I don't drink an Kellin hadn't either but that's what surprised me

"Were almost there " He said

* at the party*

We walked in and the first people I see if a pap he took a picture of me and Kellin and said to smile, we did because honestly I don't want people seeing me as that sad depressed anorexic whore

Andy off of BVB walked over and shook my hand , he was wearing a black suit with a Christmas tree tie he had barely any black stuff on his face which made home look decent

"Hi Jasmin right? Nice to meet you"He said

"You to "I said politely

Him and Kellin bro hugged and them he walked away

We them walked over to the beautiful picture of Katelynn that had said

"R.I.P the beautiful Bride " Her and Kellin were going to get married in a few months before she died

I looked to Kellin and saw a year run down his cheek

I leaned over and whispered in his ear

"It's okay she's in heaven " He nodded in reply

We walked over to ATL and Alex shook my hand and said " Sorry for your lost " to Kellin

I honestly loves Kellin and I felt awful sometimes I wander if I hadn't showed up she would be alive

He could have checked on her before she died .. nope I was a distraction

We took a seat on a couch over by the rest of the band

"Have you met Ashley yet ? " Jesse said

"Oh no but Hi! " I said happy and politely

"Congratulations on the new addition I'm happy for you and Jess " I added

"Nice to meet you and thanks were just as happy " She replied sweetly and then pecked Jesse on the lips

Wish someone loved me like that.

"I'm getting a drink want something ? " Kellin asked

"Water thanks" I said nicely

He came back and handed me a mini bottle of water and told me to follow him

He led me to a hall from behind the stage and then entered me into a room full of janitor stuff

"What are we doing in here "I asked

"I can't wait but I just want to say sorry and I know it's strange were in here but I miss you and I miss our loving moments please don't be mad at me anymore I love you "He said

"Kellin I love you to and I miss you to but what you did that night was .. Was .. Mean!" I said not finding the polite word for douche bag

"I know I know as I regret it completely I shouldn't have called you a whore or pushed you it was stupid and if I could reverse time that is what I would change."He said

I thought for a second hugged him tight

"Kellin I love you to "I said

"No Jasmin I don't mean it in a brother way I seriously love you."he said

I was stunned I knew he loved me but not in that way

I loved him to, in that way all I could do was kiss him