Imperfection (Vhope fan fiction 18+)

Humans

It's sad how most people become who they promised they'd never be, right...or is that just me? In many ways people have rejected me, they have teased me, physically and verbally...and for what? What have I ever done to them?

When people make fun of you...what hurts the most isn't how they torment you...but it's realizing what they're saying is actually true.

'You're ugly, you're fat' those words ringing in my head like it's on replay, everyday.

Is it wrong to ask someone for help, or is it wrong to not ask at all. People would usually say "obviously you ask for help, that's the best thing to do." But what if you do ask for help and the people you asked ignore you, make the situation worse or say 'kill yourself if you're having such a tough time.'

In my heart, I want to look at myself in the mirror with a smile on my face. I want to look at myself and be happy for who I see staring back at me in the mirror. I want to love, adore, pamper myself...but who would love someone like me, who would show affection to someone so secluded as I am...and who would pamper someone as ugly as myself.

Hearing words like 'ugly' 'fat' 'disgusting' 'freak' over and over again make you start to think "if everyone's calling me these horrible things, does that mean it's true?"

Thinking back to the way I was before, I was ugly...fat...disgusting and a freak. Don't get me wrong, I still am but at least now I acknowledge the fact that I am those things.

The people who teased, bullied, tormented me...they were telling the horrible, terrifying truth. The shameful, accurate truth that I didn't want to face. Sometimes the people who hate you the most, can point out every flaw with just taking one look at you...

...humans...are scary, messed up creatures...