Imperfection (Vhope fan fiction 18+)

dinner

Warning: this chapter talks about eating disorders so if you're uncomfortable with reading things like this, please don't read this chapter. 

As the three of us got into Yoongi's bedroom, Yoongi closed the door behind us and an awkward silence arose. 

Jimin and Yoongi were talking for an hour just about how they knew me, but then the conversation escalated to learning more about each other. So the two of them were talking to each other for one or two hours and I was in the other corner of the room, staring at the floor, thinking about how much I shouldn't be here. Thinking how much I don't belong here. 

If someone came into the room right now, they would think Yoongi is the one who's been working with Jimin for years at the cafe and that Jimin was Yoongi's childhood friend. Even though they just met, Yoongi looked closer to Jimin then I've ever been. 

"Yoongi, hunny, another friend is down here at the door" we could all hear his mother call out from downstairs. 

"Hoseok could you go downstairs and get him?" He asks, now turning his head to me. Now that I think about it, this was the first time in those two hours that he looked at me. 

I nodded silently, slowly getting up and walking downstairs to get Taehyung. "Hoseok~" Taehyung exclaims as soon as he saw me but I didn't greet him back, I kept my head down. 

"Where is everyone?" He asks, I could tell he was smiling at me with a huge grin but I didn't bother looking up. I was already in a horrible mood from being ignored for two hours. I pointed up the stairs and walked back up, meaning 'follow me.'

Taehyung understood what I meant because I could hear him walking up stairs behind me, following me. 

Once Taehyung and I entered the room, Jimin looked up at Taehyung and smiled. "Oh, you're the dude who always comes to the cafe with your girlfriend." Jimin says and Taehyung awkwardly chuckled. 

"Y-Yeah, that's me" Taehyung says in a stutter. 

I was sitting back down in the corner where I was before, staring off at the floor, not saying anything. Jimin and Yoongi were still talking about a lot of things that I was too socially awkward to understand. Taehyung was putting his bags down and trying to sort through everything. 

"I shouldn't be here...I don't belong here" is what I kept thinking to myself. 

"Why're you sitting all alone in the corner, Hoseok?" I could hear Taehyung say. I could see he was now standing in front of me but I didn't bother to look up to stare at his face, I kept looking down at his feet. 

Taehyung groaned as he sat down in front of me so we were both looking at each other now, but once I saw his face I quickly looked down into my lap. "You're more quiet then usual today...did something happen?" 

I didn't answer and continued to look down. 

"Come on Hoseok, tell me what's wrong~" Taehyung whines, poking my arm by I leaned away from the arm  he was poking. 

"Hoseok, Hoseok, Hoseok!" He kept saying my name for a minute or so before I cracked. 

"I don't want to be here" I admit, whispering it only loud enough for Taehyung to hear. 

"Then why'd you agree to have a sleep over with him?" Taehyung whispers back, in a tone that made me sound stupid. 

"Because he practically said yes for me. I don't want to be here, I don't belong here..." 

"How do you not belong here, we're all in the same grade, we're all guys." 

"Yeah...but..." 

I then get interrupted by Yoongi's mother calling all four of us down to eat dinner. Yoongi and Jimin got up at the speed of light and jolted out of the room so fast it was crazy when they heard the word dinner. Taehyung wasn't as fast as them, but he was faster then me and stood up before me.