Imperfection (Vhope fan fiction 18+)

going back to the house

warning: graphic content is talked about in this chapter like self harming and suicidal thoughts, so if you're uncomfortable with reading about such things, please don't read this chapter. This whole chapter talks about it, so I won't add in 'it starts now' anywhere because it's the whole thing.

*Hosoek's POV*

I woke up and blinked a couple of times. It's all a dream, right? My mother dying, Jungkook never wanting to see me again...it's all a dream...right?

I looked up to see a white ceiling with long bright lights hanging down from it. Damn it, am I in the hospital again? 

I slowly sat up and looked around to see I was still in the police station and the frown on my face felt like it was furrowing more then it already was, which seemed impossible.

"So you're awake?" I hear a voice call out from one side of me. I looked to see who was talking to me, it was the police officer who had brought me to the police station yesterday. 

I didn't say anything...or more like I didn't want to say anything. 

He looked at me with his bottom lip sticking out and kind of hunched his back so he was leaning forward to talk to me. "You don't have to go to school today...what we have to do right now is find out where we're going to put you. We got in contact with your dad around one in the morning today and he now knows about the situation you're in." 

"Please don't tell me he wants me to go to some other country with him so I can live with him?" I ask, looking at the police officer concerned and a bit scared. 

"No, what he did was pay off for your mothers funeral expenses since he wouldn't be here for it." The officer explains and I nodded, that did sound like him after all.

In the middle of talking to the officer I heard someone yell "where is he?" from the entrance of the police station which everyone turned their heads to. That sounds like...it can't be. 

Taehyung turned the corner and was looking around the room frantically until we both locked eyes and he ran up to me. "T-Taehyung" I say, slowly getting up from sitting down. 

"Hosoek!" he exclaims, coming up to me and it felt like he was going to tackle me but he just hugged me very tightly. "Hoseok are you okay, I heard what happened." He says, he sounded really hurt in his tone of voice. 

"I...uh" I didn't know what to say, it was like I was at a loss of words, not knowing what to say or do. 

I saw Taehyung's dad and Dohyun walk into the room from over Taehyung's shoulder while he was hugging me and they both had frowns of their own on their faces. 

Dohyun walked up to Taehyung and I while their dad went to the police officer to talk with him about something. "You okay Hoseok?" Dohyun asks as he approached me and I nodded with Taehyung still hugging me. 

Taehyung parted from me and now put both of his hands on either one of my shoulders, looking into my eyes seriously. "Are you okay, are you just nodding because you don't want people to be worried about you?" He asks. 

Jeez, why can Taehyung read me so well? I look away to divert my eyes from his and clear my throat to stall time from answering. "I don't know, but I don't feel like talking to anyone today. In all honesty I don't feel too well in general." I explain, lightly pushing Taehyung away from me, needing my own space. 

Taehyung let me push him away and chewed on his bottom lip. "I want to get some fresh air...so please don't follow me." I say in a quiet tone. I didn't mean to make it sound like I was hurting, but even I could hear I was upset in my own voice.