Imperfection (Vhope fan fiction 18+)

Back together

I woke up beside my toilet in the bathroom, dried vomit on my chin. I blinked a couple times, confused on why I was on the washroom floor but then remembered back to yesterday and shook my head, quickly remembering the horrible things I ate. 

I slowly stumbled to get up, wobbling over to the sink where I looked at myself in the mirror and washed my face, getting the dried vomit off of my chin. 

I then walked into my bedroom, opening my closet for my uniform. I sighed at the sight of my closet, looking at my uniform hanging on the same hangers it always did. 

Once I put my uniform on and brushed my hair and teeth, I then grabbed my backpack and headed downstairs. 

I quickly put my shoes on and left the house without looking around to try and find my mother and where she was. Probably lying on the couch drunk. 

It was like always still dark out when I left the house and got onto the bus to get to school. 

It was like someone was pulling down on my face because I was just so upset I couldn't put a smile on, even if I wanted to. 

Everyone most likely saw the picture and video of Taehyung and I kissing, I'll be made fun of not only by the small group that picks on me now, but from the whole school as well. Pretty soon someone from the school board might find that video and send it to my mom. 

I don't need all of this, it's stressing me out and just making me more depressed then I usually am. 

As I got to school, like expected no one was there, but once people did start coming...for some odd reason nothing changed. Everyone ignored me like I didn't exist. No one was looking at me weirdly, they were just passing my by like I wasn't even there. Did no one see the video...or do they just not care?

I got up from my seat and walked out of the classroom to go to the staircase and just sat there. I needed to think things through. Why was everything ignoring me like nothing happened between Taehyung and I? 

"Hoseok, you here?" I heard a voice call out, and just by the tone of the persons voice, I could tell it was Taehyung and gave no reply. 

As Taehyung turned the corner and looked up the staircase, he saw me and sat down; which I got up. 

"Stay" Taehyung says in a serious tone, grabbing me and pulling me back down. I sat down with a frown on my face and let him stop me. I knew he was going to talk about what happened yesterday, and I didn't want to deal with it. But if I didn't let him talk to me about it now, he's going to keep bothering me until he does tell me, knowing his persistent personality. 

I glanced over at him and he was giving me a serious expression on his face which just made me want to look back down and ignore his existence all together. 

 "Why'd you run away yesterday...I didn't end up telling my dad, I wouldn't tell him something like that. Do you not trust me?" Taehyung asks. 

I staid quiet and he asked once again, in an even louder tone "do you not trust me Hoseok?" 

I then thought about it myself...did I really not trust Taehyung? I didn't know, so I didn't answer but with me giving him no answer, it made him more upset.

"So you're not going to answer me?" He asks with a long sigh at the end, turning his head away. 

I continued to not say anything and I guess he caught on to that I wasn't going to give him an answer. 

"You know I'm just trying to help you...I even got kicked out of the group I wanted to be in so bad because I tried defending you! Do you not see how much I care for you?! I care for you a lot Hoseok, but you keep pushing me away! No, you push everyone away that tries helping you. It ruined everything for me that I defended you but I still did it because I care and you can't even let me in after that!?" Taehyung asks in anger. 

I could hear the tears he was holding back in his wobbly tone of voice. It made me upset hearing how much sadness and anger I made for him, and I knew he was just letting everything out so I let him do it. Even if it did make me feel like shit in the end of his rant, he deserved to let everything out.

"You're hurt, you're in pain and whenever I try helping you...you do nothing! I love you Hoseok, so why don't you want me to help you?!" He asks, looking at me seriously. 

I quickly looked up at him as he said the word 'love' and had a surprised expression on my face. Love...what did he mean by that? I've never been told by someone that they love me, even my parents haven't said such a thing. Hearing someone actually say it made me a bit surprised. 

I could tell Taehyung realized what he had said a couple minutes after he said it because his serious expression changed into embarrassment, his face turning pink and now he was the one looking down into his lap.

I wanted to ask him what he meant by when he said 'love' but he quickly stood up before I could even say anything. 

"T-Taehyung..." I faintly say, I could feel my cheeks becoming warm, heating up by the second. 

Taehyung turned his head but couldn't look back at me. He then looked forward and walked away, leaving me alone once again. 

As Taehyung left, I put my two cold hands on both my cheeks so my warm cheeks cooled down a bit. Why did I get so embarrassed when Taehyung told me he loved me?!

*Taehyung's POV*

I scurried down the staircase to get away from Hoseok as fast as possible. I couldn't face Hoseok right after saying I 'loved' him! 

I don't even know what I'm saying myself, it just came out on it's own! I don't even know if what I'm feeling towards Hoseok is 'friendship' or actual 'love.' 

As I started to fast walk down the hallway to my classroom, I bumped into someone which made them move to a side because of my push. 

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean too" I say while turning around to see who I had pushed but stopped halfway when seeing who it was. It was Areum. 

"U-Um...it's okay Taehyung..." Areum faintly says, looking down to avoid eye contact with me while pushing her hair behind her ear. Whenever she did that I knew she was feeling uncomfortable or sad. 

"You know...how we broke up was really...you know..." I say, I didn't know how to start a conversation with her but I wanted to talk things out about how we left off. 

"Yeah...I didn't know you were gay, don't worry I totally support it and everything like that. You can go and like Hoseok if you want" Areum says with a dry chuckle at the end. 

I shook my head meaning she was wrong "I'm not gay Areum, I just did that as 'punishment' when the group I was in said I needed to learn they're higher then I am. Hoseok just happened to be in the washroom at the time and they used him as part of my punishment." I try explaining. I wasn't going to let her say I was gay when I didn't even know myself. 

Areum looked down and smiled, I guess she believed me and says a faint "is that so?" 

"Yeah, I'm sorry how things ended off. Could you maybe, give me another chance?" I suggest, looking at her with the puppy dog eyes I usually do when I wanted to get something that I want. 

Areum instantly smiled, nodding to what I asked and said "of course I'll give you a second chance! I was so depressed when Dohyun showed that video to the class...I didn't know what to think! I thought you were totally gay. I'm so happy you're not though...thank you Taehyung!" Areum says in a smile, hugging me tightly. 

I hugged her small, fragile body back. Her long black hair smelt like shampoo and her cheek which was pressing against my neck felt so soft. 

It was comfortable having her in my embrace, but it felt different from when I hugged Hoseok, or when I was even around Hoseok. When I'm around Hoseok I feel embarrassed, butterflies are in my stomach and my cheeks get warm. When I'm with Areum, I'm happy, but I don't feel embarrassed, I don't get butterflies in my stomach and my cheeks don't heat up. 

Even so it made me happy that I was going out with her again and continued to hug her tightly in the middle of the hallway. 

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Hey guys, Taehyung and Areum are now starting to date again but Taehyung is starting to have feelings for Hoseok and the same goes for Hoseok, having feelings for Taehyung. More drama is going to happen as well including Dohyun and Taehyung so be prepared for that.