Imperfection (Vhope fan fiction 18+)

Lunch

Everyone then left the washroom, including Taehyung who was following his group head down.

I didn't know why myself, but tears started to form as they left the washroom.

Was it because they used me as blackmail for both of us? Was it because Taehyung kissed me without my consent? Or maybe it was because he took my first kiss.

I don't know what the reason was, but tears were streaming down my face.

I dropped the cloth I had in hand and looked down at the washroom floor, not saying anything.

At the same time I heard someone enter the washroom and it was some one from an older grade. They looked at me weirdly and then said "dude, you're a man you shouldn't be crying. Guys aren't suppose to cry, you wimp."

I turned my head away from him, quickly wiping my tears away and leaving the washroom so I didn't have to face him any longer.

Once I left the washroom, I entered the classroom where everyone was talking to their friends.

Taehyung was in our class as well, talking to Areum. From what I heard the other day they were probably talking about their date which was tomorrow.

I could see from the corner of my eye Taehyung was sneaking glances at me, probable to see if I was okay. He could tell I knew he was looking at me but I ignored him purposely.

Class then started, Taehyung left our class to get to his own and the teacher walked in.

Class was long and boring, nothing new was taught it was just review that was being done for an upcoming test.

Lunch time came around and I sat down at my normal spot, eating lunch when the same figure appeared before me like every lunch time.

As I looked up, that figure was Taehyung and I sighed deeply. Why was this guy so persistent?

As I was getting up, to start walking away, Taehyung pushed me back down to sit back down on the steps.

I was a bit surprised by his actions and looked up at him surprised and confused.

"Let me eat lunch with you" Taehyung says in a persistent tone.

"I already told you no." I say in a stern tone of voice.

"Yeah okay I know you don't want to eat lunch with me because I'm your 'bully' but I want to get to know you better. And if my group sees me eating lunch with you, I'll get in trouble as well. Its not you who's only scared of getting caught eating lunch with me? I'm a little scared to be seen eating lunch with you, but I want to get to know you so I'm risking it." Taehyung explains.

I looked at Taehyung seriously for a good minute or so before deeply sighing and saying a small "fine."

A smile grew on Taehyung's face as I said fine and he sat down next to me, pulling out his lunch.

I scooted a bit to a side so I wasn't sitting right next to him and took a glance at his lunch. Taehyung's lunch looked all home made. Meanwhile with mine, it was obviously store bought.

I didn't want to start conversation so I didn't ask who made his lunch and directed my gaze into my lap where my untouched sandwich was sitting.

"Aren't you going to eat?" Taehyung asks, looking at me confused while taking the first mouthful of his own lunch.

I shrugged my shoulders, I wasn't comfortable eating around other people and say "I'm not really hungry" in a lie.

"Oh, okay" Taehyung says, not even thinking twice about if I was lying or not.

An awkward silence filled the air between us before Taehyung let out a huge sigh to cover up the awkward aura.

"So....tell me s little about yourself" Taehyung asks.

"About myself?" I repeat, a bit confused on why he wanted to know anything about me.

"Yeah, like tell me what you do on your freetime, what's your favorite food, what's your favorite school subject?"

I looked down, thinking about those questions for a bit before saying "I sleep on my freetime, I don't have a favorite food and I don't have a favorite school subject."

"Oh...well I play videogames on my free time or hang out with my friends. I like every food so all food is my favorite food, and my favorite school subject is phys ed!"

I nodded to everything Taehyung had said. He seemed to have a much easier life. He had friends to hang out with while I didn't. Because I sleep so much my sleeping schedule is corrupted.

He likes every food while I don't like any. I can't risk myself getting fatter while he has no care in the world on eating anything since he's already so good looking.

Lastly his favorite subject is phys ed while in phys ed I'm trying to avoid the balls being thrown at me from across the gymnasium.

I guess Taehyung could see I was thinking too deep into it with the frown on my face and my furrowed eyebrows because he then asks "are you okay?"

I nodded meaning yes as I say "yeah, I'm totally fine."

"Okay...that's good" Taehyung slowly says, looking down.

He then looked up at me and from the corner of my eye I could see he was biting his bottom lip. Holding in what he wanted to ask me.

After another minute of silence he then asked me what he wanted to know "why are there wounds on your wrists?"

I looked at Taehyung saying nothing, I didn't want to answer him. I already told him way too much when he confronted me about it the last time.

"You can tell me Hoseok, I won't judge you or anything..."

I looked down into my lap while shaking my head meaning no. "I-I can't" I say in a broken stutter.

Taehyung deeply sighed, then saying "alright, I'll wait until when you're ready to tell me."

After Taehyung had said that, the bell rang and he got up first. "I'll head down first, nice talking to you Hoseok" Taehyung says in a cheeky grin before ruffling my hair and walking back down the stairs.

As Taehyung left, I put my hand on top of my head, over top of the place he had rubbed my head.

I then looked down, thinking about how Taehyung was concerned...and how he wanted to know about my condition and if I was alright.

Does Taehyung...maybe...actually care about me?

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Hey guys, I'm so sorry I haven't been able to update, exams are hectic and I've been making study notes all this week. On top of study notes I've just been really out of it. Next week are my exams, hopefully I pass.