Imperfection (Vhope fan fiction 18+)

Shower

It was two minutes before school actually started and I knew I couldn't walk into class when a lesson was going on because then everyone's attention was going to be put onto me, and that was worse then walking inside when everyone was focusing on their friends.

As I walked into class, I could see a couple of people giving me disgusted looks on their faces, I knew they could smell the urine in my hair.

I could feel people staring from each direction and I hated it. Soon enough I had enough of the staring and got up, taking my backpack with me and leaving the classroom.

I was walking down the hallway when the school bell rang meaning class started and I sighed. I knew I wasn't going back to class and slowly walked downstairs to leave the school when someone stopped me by holding my shoulder.

I thought a teacher had stopped me and continued to look down, waiting for the teacher to tell me to get back to class but the person who had stopped me didn't say anything.

As I looked up at the person who had stopped me, it was the same boy Taehyung who had beat me up in the washroom and I kissed my teeth, turning around and starting to walk down the stairs.

"Hey, I'm sorry okay" Taehyung says, catching up to me and walking beside me down the stairs.

"Don't you have to get to class?" I ask in some attitude, ignoring his apology.

"No...I think this is more important, I want to apologize to you" Taehyung seriously says.

"Don't waist your time, I'm not forgiving you so leave me alone." I say, getting a little angry.

"Even though I'm apologizing, do you really think you should be talking down to the person who had beat you up not even an hour ago?" Taehyung asks, looking at me seriously and I chuckled.

"Is that a threat?" I ask.

"No it's not, I just don't want to hear you talking down to me...come on, listen to my apology, I just wanted to be a part of their group!" Taehyung explains, trying to make me understand.

"I'm not excepting your apology, no matter what you say. Why would you want to be a part of their group anyway. If you're sorry for hurting me, they do it all the time. If you're with them, this won't be your last time bullying me. They pick on me every day. If you're going to apologize every day because you pick on me...you're pathetic" I say before finally getting to the bottom and leaving the school.

I couldn't hear Taehyung walking behind me and as I looked behind me, he wasn't. Was I disappointed that he wasn't? In all honesty I don't know what that feeling was in my stomach. Was it because he actually apologized and paid attention to me and that I wanted him to actually continue to pay attention to me... Or it could be that the stench in my hair was getting to me.

I jumped the school gate and left the school, walking home so I could take a shower.

"Hoseok, why the hell are you home, get back to school now!" I heard my mother yell from the top of the stairs as I walked into the house and started taking off my shoes.

"I got dirty, I need to take a shower and wash up first before I can go back." I explain, heading to the washroom and taking off my clothes and starting the water.

I hated taking showers, having to look at my body, but the thing I hated most about taking showers, was that it would hurt my wrists. The inflicted wounds I had made across them stung whenever water hit them, and it would bother me.

I avoided taking showers a lot for that reason, but when I start to stink, I had to.

As I got into the shower, the running water hitting my wrists it hurt so much, but I knew I had to wash my hair so I bared the pain and started to scrub my hair with soap.