Imperfection (Vhope fan fiction 18+)

Defending him

wanring: 18+ scenes in this chapter, a lot of things about self harm as well. If you are sensitive to that type of stuff, please don't read this chapter. Also a lot of bullying and a bit of homophobia.

As I woke up the next day, I had to go to school, but just thinking I had to see Taehyung again made my heart sink. 

I kicked him out of my own house yesterday, will he even want to eat lunch with me anymore? Wait...why would I care if he would want to eat lunch with me anymore? 

As I got out of bed, I put my uniform on and slowly walked out of my bedroom, heading down to the kitchen to grab my lunch from the fridge. 

As I opened the fridge to grab my lunch, I saw it wasn't there and was a bit confused. "Mom, did you eat my lunch?" I call out, waiting for an answer but no one answered back. 

I sighed deeply, closing the fridge door. She probably did. 

What am I going to have for lunch now...I can't go down to the cafeteria to get my lunch because I don't want to get beat up more then I already do. 

I guess I just have to bare the day with eating nothing...not that I really care anyway since I have to lose a bit of weight anyway.

I then head to the front door where I put my shoes on and head out to catch the bus to school. 

Once got to school, no one was at school so I enjoyed the silence that was around me until people started coming. 

Slowly I started to hear more conversations and more laughing. People with their friends started to talk about things that weren't relevant to me so I tried blocking out their voices, but it was like I couldn't. 

"You're suppose to be cleaning the washrooms, what're you doing here?" Minjun asks, coming up behind me and pulling up my head by grabbing the back of my hair. 

I looked back to see him looking down at me and say a faint "sorry" now starting to get up. 

"Oh, we also heard that you cut yourself?" Joowon says, looking at me seriously and my heart started to pound. 

H-How do they know that I....the only person who's ever seen my wrists are Taehyung...did he...tell them?! I looked at them in worry and they started to chuckle. 

"Hold on so it's true, we just thought what Taehyung told us was fake, wah you're really something~" Minjun says in a chuckle, grabbing my arm and forcefully pulling up my sleeves to reveal my wrist and forearms. 

"Ew, they're disgusting" Minjun says while laughing, pushing down on the inflicted wounds. 

It hurt and I tried pulling my arm back. It hurt my pride just knowing that they found out, not to mention laugh at it. They're laughing at my failed attempts on killing myself. 

I could feel the tears starting to appear in my eyes, trying to pull my arm back with full force but they were too strong. 

"It's disgusting" Joowon says, pulling up my other sleeve. 

By now a couple of people from the class were looking as well. Some people were too focused on talking to their friends while others noticed. I could tell some people were a bit shocked when they saw the wounds inflicted on my wrists and forearms, and some people were trying to see what it was since my body was blocking the way of their view. 

"Please, let go" I beg, trying to pull my arms back but they wouldn't. 

I then turn my head, I knew tears were about to come out but I didn't want to cry in front of them, not to mention the whole class. I would be made fun of by everyone, if everyone saw me crying. No one would see me as a man if they saw a tear fall from my eye.