Brave || Zerrie AU

Hollow

Dear journal, 

It's been two weeks.  By this point everyone seems to want me to be okay, as if the breakup was nothing. I don't understand how they expect me to forget him when we spent four years together and in love. They want me to be okay, but I can't. 

I can't.

I can't move on. I can't forget his kisses, his hugs or the way his eyes would light up when we were together. I just can't.

I love him so much and that makes this even harder. How are you supposed to forget the person you love most in this world. It hurts so much. There's this empty place inside me that won't let me fully feel anything anymore. I try, honestly, I really do but my life seems like it's not mine anymore.

I'm watching my life pass by and I feel hollow.  I hate feeling like this because I hate depending on a relationship but I can't stop.

Zayn broke off our two year engagement in the spam of five minutes, said goodbye to our love and our future together. He didn't love me anymore, he said. He said I deserved better and then walked away not looking back. He had my heart in his hands and he dropped it, let it go because he no longer wanted it. But I was guarding his, keeping it under lock and key, protecting it from all the bad in the world.

How am I supposed to keep going? I don't think I can but I don't want to give up.

How do I fix this? How can I fix my heart? How can I love again? 

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Little sneak peak of what's to come!! I'm honestly so excited for this story you guys!! I wanted to update sooner but I had originally written three other chapters but none convinced me so I kept writing.

I really hope you guys like this so far. Please let me know what you think (:

lots of love,

lucy xoxo