Brave || Zerrie AU

Time

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Zayn***

There was a hollowness in Zayn's heart that couldn't be explained. It felt as if he couldn't breathe no matter how hard he tried. His thoughts often drifted to the blond haired girl who had broken his heart just yesterday. Why didn't I say anything? Zayn thought as he walked back to his house after a long walk. 

Is this how Perrie felt? It seemed like a knife had been plunged into his heart and with every thought of her the knife moved and cut deeper. Nothing could compare to the pain and sadness that washed over him. 

A flash of blond hair passed by his eyes but he knew that it didn't belong to Perrie. Zayn hated himself more than anything. His heart belonged to Perrie and over the last few months Gigi had been giving him her heart but he couldn't do the same. He tried but it was useless; his heart was Perrie's. 

"Where did you go?" Gigi asked curiously after Zayn had left for more than three hours. She didn't mean to sound possessive she was just worried. Something had happened to him and he seems to be so heartbroken. She wanted to fix him. She loved him. 

Gigi prayed that it wasn't over Perrie. That would kill her. But something deep down inside of her told her Perrie played a big part in his pain. 

"I went for a walk in the park." Zayn smiled kindly but the smile doesn't reach his eyes as he walked by her to the house. He reached for her hand and enterwied their fingers, their arms brushing every so often. After a minute Zayn let go of her hand and walked in front of her. 

Gigi followed after him while he ignored her. Pain pumped through Gigi's veins and she turned to walk away. As if sensing this Zayn turned to face her. His hazel eyes snapped to her and raw pain was visible in them. 

The image broke her heart as she reached for him cautiously almost afraid she'd break him. "What happened to you, Zayn?" 

"Nothing. I'm just having a bad day." That was all Zayn replied though Gigi knew that wasn't it.

She pulled him into a hug while Zayn stood there for a moment deep in thought. After a while he returned the hug. The hug felt empty as if Zayn weren't here. Tears started burning in Gigi's eyes but she held them back. 

"I don't want to break your heart, Gigi." Zayn whispered into her hair and pulled her closer. 

Gigi closed her eyes and breathed him in. A peace washed over her as she lost herself in the hug. "You won't." 

But I don't love you. I don't think I ever will.  Zayn said to himself. 

He knew it was selfish to be with her when he didn't love her. But he knew she loved him and he hoped that with time he would learn to love her because she was the only one who didn't hate him at the moment. Louis, Liam, and Niall hadn't spoken to him after he left the band. He knew they weren't angry, they were hurt. 

They were like his brothers and it broke his heart that they didn't want to talk to them. Then there was Harry. Zayn and Harry were like soul brothers and loved each other as if they shared the same blood. But unfortunately they fell in love with the same women and though Harry had said he wished Zayn the best with her it pained him to let her go. Zayn knew this and wished he could change the past but Perrie made him feel complete  and Zayn loved her more than anything. He knew Harry loved Perrie the moment he saw his face when Zayn told him they were engaged. Though despite that they remained brothers. But then Harry and Perrie left. Zayn knew better than to suspect they were cheating but he knew Perrie cared for Harry. 

He was an idiot. 

After everything Perrie told him yesterday he felt like the world's biggest idiot. Harry didn't come back after Paris and they lost contact. Zayn's mom birthday dinner was the first time he's seen him sine over a year and it just so happened to be by Perrie's side. The jealousy he felt in that moment was unlike anything he ever experienced but he kept his heart cool. 

He missed Harry. 

He missed the boys. 

He missed Perrie. 

But more of all he missed the guy he used to be. 

He was broken and the only person who could fix him told him she didn't want to love him anymore. 

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Just a short little chapter because I don't know when I might update again.  I have another story I wrote years ago that I want to work on so I think I might be doing that. 

Anyways, I was meaning to ask you guys, is there anything you want me to include in this story? You know, like more Zayn and Perrie moments or Harry. I know how this story will end already and I just want to know how you guys feel about it at this point.

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