Obsession

Chapter 20

His brown hair and dark eyes his smooth skin and sharp cheekbones etched in my memory.
I unfolded the letter carefully.  It read:

Blood is red
The knife is blue
He really slashed her
It was my father duh.
He's out on probation because the house wasn't his.
One of his guys is taking the fall.
The guy is pretty tall.
His name is Carl remember him
Yes he's always been a little dim.
I have no inheritance and have been disowned
And my actions have been condoned.
I realized you were back too quickly just the same did my dad.
Joe, Jennifer, Jessica, Ray, Brad, Owen, Rebecca might be sad.
To know they are next.
I would've sent a text.
But it was in the moment.
Poor little Crystal R.I.P
You shouldn't have snitched you see.
I'm warning you cause I still love you.
And I know you feel that way about me too.
I'm coming for you and everything you love.
No longer a pure white dove.
Then we will be happy once I've hurt you the way you hurt me.
Then together we can forever and always be.

Xoxo remember me

Everyone looked at me as I shattered. I sat and cried then I grabbed matches put the letter in a bowl I then burnt it everyone was shocked. Ray jumped up and tried to blow it out. "No!!" I shoved him  "I have learnt my lesson about snitching. If you wanna know what that letter was about ask me because its etched in my memory and I can never forget it so please. Tell me do you want to know that he wrote an evil little poem filled psychotic words showing how delusional he is without me! Do you want to know that in the first line he cruelly pointed out how his father killed Crystal and then near the end told me he loves me and knows I love him too or do you want to know that he found me so quickly within two weeks of me living here. Or better yet would you like to know how he said that after he is done brutally slashing and killing along with his father everyone of that he would gradually pretend nothing happened and runaway in sunsets with me. All too gain his Russian mobster of a father's trust so he can be reentered into the family after he let me escape because he loved me after four years of being stuck in a slave trade where I was thrown at any man who had enough cash to fuck me. Or better yet do you prefer to know they hooked us on heroine and I betrayed the love of my life to save every girl suffering at his father's hand. And watched a friend of mine not only being killed but being slashed in that Russian mobs' mark. Living in terror for 4 years of my life. I went through such massive PTSD that I lost some memory. I have relaxed and I'm happyish now. But nooooo I have to be sent this piece of shit saying to me. Oh wait its not over yet we're back and we're back with a killer thirst for blood. You didn't think we'd let you enjoy yourself for too long did you? Oh yeah and the fact that I just found out I'm adopted and my real father killed himself because of my kidnapping and my real mother threw me up for adoption the second she saw me after his death I'm  pretty sure she would have been happier if I had died. So is there anything else you feel I'm hiding from you or can I finally just sit here and wallow in self pity!"

"God for a guy with the name Ray you're definitely not bringing in any sunshine." I sat down tiredly and we all kept still and quiet. Until the door was opened.
A woman walked in put some tea and cookies down, she approached me seeing my distraught face and could tell I was suffering. A part of my brain felt I couldn't trust her she gave me a sketchy vibe.

"Mom get out I told you not to bother us." Said Joe. His mother replied defensively. "I was just trying t-." He cut her off. "Just go!" He grabbed his hands through his hair as if to show how much he wanted her gone.
She looked at me concerned and tried to pat me but I jumped to sit on Joe's lap. She raised an eyebrow but ignored it. "I'm sorry about Crystal." That did it for my brain

My paranoia hit a new level and my body sent me into hysterics. I grabbed acup of hot tea and threw it just above her head. She shrieked but I didn't stop I kept throwing dishes Joe and Ray held me back. And I screamed so loud and constant when his mom was safely out he started to let go mainly because I was frantically wild.
"Let me take you home okay?" He said cautiously leaning forward.
"No!" I screamed. "This is all your fault I never would've gotten to see that letter if it weren't for you. You brought me here. You're working for him aren't you? ARENT YOU?" I screamed. He shook his head and tried to grab at me quickly but I was too quick I ran to the other side of the room. I jumped and hugged brad. "You'll protect me right?" "Yeah, sure." He smiled then he lifted me bridal style out the house. I kissed his cheek climbed out his arms then I got in the car.

He got in the driver seat of his range rover. Then he drove out the range rover. I put my address in his GPS and we drove.
"Why'd you pick me? Like to be the one person to trust."
I thought carefully. "You cared for Crystal a lot. You've been silent throughout everything. You guys had a special relationship... a secret one no one else knew about. Or you don't like the people you hang with because you know too much. Either one."
He smiled. "You're cute and I know you're thinking what? I get it okay you're emotionally scarred and it isn't easy to overcome so many things you told everyone in that room. You're not crazy you have every right to feel this way. So.... if you want just talk to me I swear I'll tell no one. That's what Crystal was to me, a confidante and I feel that I've only ever trusted her with my secrets so believe me I get it. So.. if you need someone who understands I'm here."
I grabbed his hand and squeezed it. The only way I knew how to show affection in the car in that moment.

"It sounds like you're speaking from experience. Are you? "
"Yup." He said popping the p. "I had a hard time with a lot of things last year and we all have our bi polar moments and its ok. Some good advice. Don't keep it in you'll end up like a shaken bottle of coke when you finally open you spill all over and make a mess."

We pulled up to my house. His impression at its size and beauty was evident he drove up to my house but we were both shocked to see two police cars outside my house.
I got out and was surprised to see him exit too. He held my hand and whispered. "I'd never let you jump in a fire alone. Knowing you only two weeks and all."
I laughed and we made our way to the door.