Obsession

Chapter 4

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After having about a bazillion heart attacks when I saw every room in my house I finally decided to just relax in my room with James and Jenna, until they left.

"Don't you dare worry dollface I would be crazy to not come back to a house as humongous as this one."

I glared at him.

"You will only come back upon invite. Got that. And that goes for you to Jen.

She rolled her eyes. "Don't drag me into this,"

How is it possible that I befriended such bottom sucking leeches.

"Okay , I think you've overstayed your welcome, time to leave. I need to cut you out my life so I can find new bitchtastic friends."

They looked at me the surprise evident on their face but also a glimmer of sadness was evident.

"Seriously, get out! I'm like so over y'all."

Let just say it went seriously south from there. I don't know what got into me but I was feeling really sad one minute and we kept sitting and then we were talking about them leaving me and just like that I got mad. I started hitting kicking and pushing them out. I was beyond pissed ,I have no idea why but I even pushed my best friend down the stairs. Luckily she was okay, hurt emotionally but okay physically.

We all sat silently at the dinner table, but they just kept giving me a look.

Real suttle.

"Okay, seriously what the fuck is it?"

My mom gave me a look and shook her head, tutting at me.

"What the hell!"

I angrily grabbed my plate, still full mind you. And started stalking off towards the elevator. While I waited for the elevator to arrive I heard them talking about something.

And when I moved closer I realised that they were talking about me .

" I don't know what is up with her she's been acting really weird lately." Said my mom. "Yea, definitely, I mean the other day she actually wanted to spend time with me and she bought me stuff now she's pmsing on her friends." answered my brother "That's it ,maybe she's.....

I couldn't let him finish, I couldn't believe that they would just betray me like that. My ears had gone deaf with fury I rushed into the dining room. There I burst.

"HOW CAN YOU JUST SAY THAT ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK, FIRST WE SIT IN SILENCE AND YOU ALL BLATANTLY IGNORE ME , THEN THE MOMENT I LEAVE EVERYONE IS ALL GOSIPPY ABOUT ME AND MY BEHAVIOUR. WELL MAYBE IF I HAD A BETTER FAMILY. I WOULDNT FEEL LIKE IM STUCK  ON MY OWN WITH NO SUPPORT AND NO ONE TO HELP ME START OF IN THIS NEW SHIT ASS TOWN.

My eyes started to water and i could taste the salty tears reaching my lips.

This time I was softer in my voice. "Maybe if you'd actually cared about me and knew me, you would notice that I'm drowning inside myself and nobody's  lending me a hand to pull me up for air.

Just for once you could've cared."

I saw the elevator arrive and started walking my plate still in my hand but then I stopped turned around and lunged my plate with all my power at the opposite wall nearest to the table they were still sitting at with shocked and confused expressions. My dad even looked a bit guilty.  The plate crashed against the wall shattering the plate spilling spaghetti bolognaise all over the white. This time they turned to notice me.

"Well now , I guess it's good that I finally exist."

After my sparky comment I ran up all seven floors and sprinted to my bedroom locking my door in the process.

I guess I've been feeling a bit neglected and used. My friends only wanna come to my big house and my mother hates me while my dad as much as he tries is always to busy to support me. My little brother is no use whatsoever since their always around him.
I guess it's my own fault , two years ago I lost some memory and I guess I didn't want to let them into my little bubble since I didn't want to forget any good memories I decided to have none.
I had good memories with them then something happened that we never speak of that made me shut down . After that incident I moved to a new school in LA and I have only let James and Jenna in but only to an extent.

I guess I never bothered to learn anything but now I  feel like it's holding me back.

Now I have to go to a therapist because I have to know the truth about what made me so shut down and fake....

What made me so emotionally destroyed.

Wow hope you like, it's been a while since I posted school has started piling up. ANYWHOOO enjoy comment vote and if you like keep reading.