Obsession

Chapter 33

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Joe just blinked. Over and over. He was shocked. That much i could gather from his facial expression.

My brain was spinning in endless turmoil. I didn't know what to do. Like what comes next? An explanation? Emotions?
I'd already jumped off the cliff i couldn't very well stop now, but every part of me wanted to just stop. From the memories I've been having as far as I can tell I've never dated anyone except him. I had my crushes and TV obsessions but after what happened when I was twelve i guess all my body wanted to do was physically forget what happened by practically being pansexual for two years. I could see Calvin waving me over from outside in my car. He was stationed outside because after a week the school finally had time to tell him the school was a gun free zone and did not permit weapons of any kind since the incident not that they had before. These days he was a little more willing to bend the rules since we had become friends and Luke and his father were off the map since I gave my statement to the cops. I didn't tell them about him texting and calling me though but i made them aware of the letter but that was little help cause I'd forgotten the words and I'd burnt it. Though i think the cops had some idea because of the day at my shrink i wouldn't put it past Calvin to relay every important moment or cause for suspicion to the cops. The others would be called in later this week but I hadn't told them yet. I knew Jennifer would freak out, she wasn't to good at the poker face even though she did nothing wrong.
She'd been staying with Jessica because she could still barely look at her parents without bursting into tears.

We were still standing in silence. I couldn't make him feel better with any words. My reasons were too much, too personal to just throw the words around. I wasn't even sure if my voice would ever let me speak the full truth of my horrible past. Most of my friends probably already thought I was crazy since my breakdown/freakout I didn't need to give them any proof

We were still standing in the same position and  for a split second i considered telling him everything and hoping he was willing to take the good with the bad but i quickly brushed that thought away before running to Calvin in my car getting inside and telling him to drive.
I got in the car and threw my bag into the back. "I saw you throw up. Is something wrong? Your conversation looked miserable." I laughed trying to fake a smile. It didn't work though so instead of focusing on my trembling lip I     instead sunk in my seat as far as my seatbelt would let me causing him to laugh at how ridiculous i looked. "You're such a stalker, watching me have conversations it's kinda freaky." He laughed. He put his hand on my leg. "We're friends right? So if you wanna talk I'm literally not going anywhere." I laughed and shook my head. "Lets grab a snack before I take you home" I smiled. "How could i say no to that." He gave me a mischievous grin. "Perfect. Let's get ice cream." We stopped at my brothers school and I texted him before rolling my eyes at Calvin. "Seriously I'm not five." He smirked. "Is that a no to ice cream?" I looked away and he let out a victorious HA! Before releasing a string of cocky remarks. He was silenced when my brother got in the car.
"Hey do you want ice cream too?" He asked my brother. "Oh yeah definitely! This is already way better then when dad picks me up." He said excitedly causing Calvin and i to burst into a fit of laughter.

When we finally got home i was slightly more relaxed. I dropped my bag and took out my homework, it seemed so trivial to be doing something like homework especially since  i had already applied to college and gotten a few acceptance letters though i wasn't even sure if i wanted to with my current situation, then again a change of scenery, venue and just a brand new start might be the best thing for me.
I opened my phone and books to see my phone was blowing.
I opened the messages from Brad first.

Brad: Warehouse party this weekend. You've gotta be my wingman?

Brad: *wing woman

Brad: Damn I just heard I'm super confused??????.

Brad: All that build up and banter just to date for a week.

Brad: Sorry, just shocked...how are you?

Brad: Police contacted my parents???!!?!!

Brad: Jen is totally freaking out!

Brad: We're all at my place. Get your ass over here now!!

Brad:Now is not the time to go AWOL girl!!

Brad: I'm seriously about to get really worried text me ASAP?

The last message was about a minute ago. I quickly texted him a short message and grabbed my jacket and shoes heading out my bedroom door.

Me: Holy hell! I just went out and my phone was on silent I'm heading there now. We have much to discuss.

Brad knew so much about me but i still hadn't told him about my more sour dreams that made me tremble at the idea of what Luke or his father had planned for my future.

I stopped at Calvin's room and he quickly grabbed his stuff and went off to my car with me. I decided to drive since Calvin wasn't my chauffeur though he'd been driving me around for weeks. I arrived at Brads house with a bit of help from Google maps since I'd only been here only once. I was scrolling through a few news bulletins when a headline caught my eye.

'Protective' forces