Obsession

Chapter 28

Silence echoed in the room as I stood alone in the doorway.

I was hurt.
I felt betrayed.
I thought we were better.
I never knew he was bitter.
I didn't want to hurt him not really, but what he said came at me like a slap to the face. I wanted to show him how that felt.
I was angry.

He left...
Too few words said..
An overpowering hatred... Unimaginable anger..
He just left and the worst part was that in that moment I did feel like a bitch,slut and a whore.
And it made me feel awful. I shrunk next to the small table and closed my eyes.
But I couldn't cry. My face was ready for the tears. My mind though didn't see the point. My mind told me to suck it up and move on,that this world was filled with people. That I couldn't let petty break ups,make ups,fights, pain and anger. My mind told me not to let Luke or Calvin get me down. That I'd been hurt enough and didn't deserve this.
My mind was wrong very wrong and in this moment I realized how wrong it was how much I'd changed. How my dreams and danger made me. I walked upstairs quietly.

I found the room allocated to Calvin and opened the door.
He scowled at me when he turned around in the middle of pulling of his shirt.

He put it back and stared at me expectantly.

"You don't get to do this..." I whispered suddenly shy. "Huh?"

I cleared my throat. "You don't get to do this. You dont get to hurt me and make me feel like trash because you were indecisive. You dont get to pretend i was the only person fucking this up. And you definitely dont get to pretend to be some heartbroken lover when i have only known you for three and a half weeks. You don't get to tell me who and what I am when you dont even know me."

"I care about- " I cut him off. "You care about yourself about your needs, your lust and your want but about me ...naw"

He huffed. "Can i finish a sentence?" I shook my head. "No. I think you've said enough Mr. Roberts."

I walked out and heard him groan. I got into bed and went to sleep.

The sun was much better today and everyone planned to go to the beach but i said i wasn't feeling well Joe offered to stay but i assured him it wasn't necessary.

Once they were all out the house I savagely rummaged through the room till I found where Rebecca had stashed the phones. I grabbed mine. I turned it on returning everyone's In their rightful places.

I waited and turned my volume down as all my messages loaded. I didn't even look at any of the messages. I just went to one contact.

The phone only rang twice before the phone was picked. "Hello to my little bipolar sunshine. God how I've missed you."
I bit my tongue as i almost let out a deadly scream my excitement overwhelming me.
"Oh my god James!" I whisper shouted. "I've missed you so much."
He scoffed. "You had a phone." I could sense his hostility towards me. Like a burst of light the memory that we hadn't parted ways on the best terms tore into my memory.
Weirdly enough it soothed me, after what my dad told me i had tried to fill the gaps.... Remember both the bad and the good.
I dialed myself back into my current conversation though the fog thick tension had let us settle into a bizarre and unnatural silence.

"I'm so so so sorry." He huffed, I could imagine him rolling his eyes.
"Whatever. Is there a reason you called." I was taken aback by his brutal uncaring tone. He didn't even pretend he'd missed me. I brushed away the pain knowing he was just letting his anger control him.

A part of me wanted to confide every part of my life to him, but then i thought about how i was still barely digesting everything plus handling two deaths of people i barely knew by someone i had apparently loved at some crazy horrible time of my life.

"Actually. I just wanted to make sure you and Jenna are doing okay even though i had a few marbles loose when we said goodbye to you guys."
He actually laughed. It uplifted me in a big way.

"How have you been," he said.
Obviously the time spent apart had helped him forgive me a little sooner than expected.

I wanted to tell him everything that had happened in the last three weeks, but i don't think I had even fully comprehended everything. It was too much too soon.

"My schools on holiday so i took a couple friends to a beach house i rented for the rest of the week."
He laughed. "Why am i not surprised? I definitely miss that about you." I rolled my eyes.
"Really."
"Definitely. Amongst many other things. So what else has my hormone crazed party animal been up to."
I laughed
"Oh you know a little bit of this a little bit of that. Speaking of hormones, i have a sort of boyfriend. I have kissed two guys, i tried cocaine and i now have a bodyguard."

He gasped. "Woah, woah hold up. What the actual fuck? You have been busy haven't you?"

"Yep!" I said stretching it out.

"Okay fine ....explain now before i explode. Start with this boyfriend."
I laughed at how he just brushed over everything else.

I explained most things leaving out my adoption and my shrink as well as my PTSD memory loss.
By the time I was to tired to talk it was 4 in the afternoon.
I ended the call and sighed. I was about to switch it off when i saw i had an unread message from yesterday from a number I didn't recognize.
I opened the message.

Unknown
Going somewhere?

My thoughts were traveling at a million a minute. I calmed myself deciding not to jump the gun.

Who is this?

I stared at my phone like my life depended on it when suddenly i heard the front door open. I dropped my phone into a drawer and rushed downstairs.

A/N
Recommend this book and read,read,read. :)