Obsession

Chapter 30

You know how a relationship changes. Emotions get more deep, experiences are shared.

I felt as though mine and Calvin's relationship had changed it wasn't just mindless insults, sexual teasing and physical attraction.
We had bonded over a sadness. A loved one, a friend, a sister. I won't say there was no attraction any more but it felt almost childish to linger on such trivial things in our lives.
We carried a heavy silence as he drove me to my psychologists office. I felt a little guilty, I hadn't called her friend for help nor had I called her. In fact I'd actually forgotten her existence.
To be honest with the whirlwind I had been through, talking to her was the last thing on my mind. It was only as we started to get back to routine when she had alerted my mom of the 5 sessions I'd missed in the last month. I tried to reason with my mom that at least I'd gone to the first 3, that only fueled the anger she was so desperately trying to conceal since she knew she'd flaked on her promise to drop me at every session.
We got out the car and walked into her office. I sat down on a large beanbag chair, a new addition to the doctors pale, lifeless room. The sudden splash of colour felt wrong among the serious tone of colours it was surrounded by. Although it did make me feel more comfortable.
Dr. Henderson this is my bodyguard,Calvin Roberts." I said gesturing lazily to Calvin who was still standing.  She raised an eyebrow at the news, surprised.
"Nice to meet you." she said shaking his hand politely. He nodded but said nothing.

She pulled out the chair from behind her desk and moved it around so she was now directly across me. No barriers.

"I know its been a long time so i wanted to try a new approach. We are going to start by playing a game."
I rolled my eyes i felt like a little kid. Even the enunciation of her words were large and rounded as though she was afraid i might not understand. I felt patronized and it was chipping at my anger, but i said nothing.

"Okay. So every time i ask a question you answer me truthfully and you get- "
I cut her off. "And i get a little treat!" I said in a high pitched, childish, overenthusiastic voice. I shot her a glare. She looked at me expressionless.

She smiled as if i hadn't said anything. "I heard about the death of your friends Crystal and Owen. Your mother said you hadn't known them long, yet she felt as though you were largely affected by this."  She looked at me expectantly.
"That wasnt a question i said bitterly." "Okay. Was your mother right in her observation?" Calvin was about to walk out to give me privacy i guess but i jolted. A fear creeping into me. "Please stay."  I said softly. He nodded and i saw her jot something down. I sat up and crossed my legs. I huffed and swallowed a lump in my thought at the thought of even mentioning the past few weeks her. "Yes." Her brows rose up in surprise. I continued. "Yes my mother was right about her observation. They were great people and seeing them taken from the world in such a brutal cruel way by-" My phone buzzed. I apologised and quickly checked the message instantly regretting it.

Unknown: Don't say anything I wouldn't🔪

Who is this....again?

Once again there was no rep- my thoughts were caught off as my phone buzzed. Dr. Henderson's pleas for me to continue had settled as a background noise in my ears as the buzz grew louder and louder. It was longer than a message. I looked at my phone.

Private

I gulped pushing my paranoia aside.
He wouldn't...
He's not stupid...

I held my breath and slid my finger across the call button.

"Hello?" I said unsure my voice shaking.

"Do you have to hear my voice to know it's me." He laughed.
"For someone who doesn't love me you sure as hell make it your mission to capture my attention." I couldn't let go of my breath I couldn't even fathom this possibility. I got up and walked out the room into the ladies bathroom.

"Good now that we're alone-"  I gasped finally breathing. "You're watching me!" I shouted earning a surprised look from a lady coming out of a stall. I pointed to my phone and she nodded but gave me a questioning glance as to what normal conversation would have such context. She shrugged washed her hands and left. I got into a stall and locked it.

"I hate you." He laughed more cruel this time. "No sweetheart you don't. How much of our time together do you actually remember." I stuttered but he cut me off. "You only remember what they tell you happened. You remember what they highlighted for you. After all they only know what you tell them. Its all in the mind sweetheart you can't unlock doors you don't have the key to. So let me open a few. Let me show you how you really feel about me. I'll send you a location to meet me.... And I'm sure I don't have to tell you this but make sure you come alone." "No, I don't know ho-"  He ended the call.
I groaned.
I was heartlessly hurtled away from my moment of planetary abyss. I heard a knock on the door i unlocked my stall and opened it. Calvin stood in front of me with a frown on his face.

"Who was it?" I looked at him blankly. "When you left you looked kinda panicked." I shrugged. "Jennifer was having a wardrobe emergency. He nodded but looked unconvinced.
After we entered i sat down on a firm chair this time. Dr Henderson had already moved her chair back so we were sitting across from her with her desk between us.
She smiled at me. "You were saying?" I blankly looked at her emotionless. "Nothing." My voice came out barely a whisper. I cleared my throat.
"I was saying nothing. And would you at that Dr, our time is up." I said looking at the time on my phone. I stood up and walked to my car. I got into the passenger seat and slammed the door with all my might.

Unknown: Yikes I wouldn't wanna be that car.

Believe me if you were the car there'd be a much less merciful reaction.

Unknown: Aw just when i thought we were getting along.

You're playing games  with me because you know I don't remember enough to have any true emotions and feeling. Stop cause I'm a bad loser and I promise I won't play fair.

Unknown: Is that a threat?

Yes as a matter of fact it is. Don't play with me, I'm not your little bitch.

Unknown: You will be.